i love me

I'll be back in a GIFFY!

2009-11-10T18:11:00.005+08:00

Fighter.

2009-11-02T17:20:00.001+08:00

     "Common, I don't wanna fight" - SS501, Fighter  As of now I've heard it 3 times today on shuffle...   It that what I'm feeling towards Os? I don't want to fight anymore? Or am I to fight it all the way?   "I can fight you always in my mind" whatever that means.

Die twitter!

2009-11-01T17:01:00.000+08:00

     I WNA KILL TWITTER. WHY ISN'T IT WORKING! CAN'T TWEET FRM MY PHONE! I know i said this already. But ARGH.

WTH's wrong with twitter! I can't tweet

2009-11-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

     WTH's wrong with twitter! I can't tweet frm my phone! T_T

20 more days!

2009-10-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

I said i'll blog. So i will. I'm feeling slightly under the weather right now so i'll make it short. I am so happy with myself for studying during dinner break today. I did like 4 or 5 Amath questions, which is a great accomplishment for me. Inspired by Kyuhyun. HAHA. Refer to previous post. I went alone, but actually it wasn't tt bad cause Jasper came and sat at the next table, and later on Sharmaine came for a DOUBLE CHEESEBURGER too(: so i am pleased with myself(: Still mildly embarrassed by "is this red or orange?" you should know when you coloured the gb logo for brigade knowledge test madam. If not you fail liao.
Anyway, amanda listens to radio too! HAHA. Yorobununchigeumpujimliukjhimsaa Xfm tukogehshimnida. Today not too bad. Haha. And she likes Kyuhyun too! :D that's one more person to share him with besides weishi. HAHA. It's never been a problem with jungmin...
So anyway, i was telling her about his near-death accident while i was conveniently listening to Kris something's (latest A-idol guy) song-that-he-ripped-off-thescript called live like you're dying. And starting tomorow, i shall. Hope it's not too late. Ohyes, was his name Kris Allen? It rings a bell. Anyway, it's 20 more days! I will survive.

I BELIEVE that IT'S YOU who gives me strength to overcome this MONSTER. I HOPE i can work towards my goal, STEP BY STEP. I have to FIND inspiration AGAIN. I pray that you'll STAND BY ME as i know you have planned my DESTINY. I promise to TALK TO YOU more and that this won't be your LAST GIFT to me, but that i will know you more each day. I surrender EVERYTHING to you. YOU ARE MY HEAVEN. Help me go on with life DAY BY DAY, according to your word. Amen.

There's something about Kyu.

2009-10-03T01:44:00.004+08:00

SO! It's been a few days... I have a new fasination (pardon the spelling) these few days... SUJU! And it's Kyu! (It's you. Gettit?)(you know the song... And Kyu sounds like you...) To be specific, it's Kyu Hyun. He's the kyutest thing in SUJU(: Fine, DongHae i rly cute too. And SungMin has his moments too. But as of now... It's KYU! (Cold~) Ok. Lame. SORRY SORRY! Gah. That was lamer.

So i was watching ehb, he didn't appear till ep 7, but that didn't matter. Loved him in ep 11:-D He has inspired me. Practice makes perfect. Tys, here i come! I'm not going down without a fight. Like Kyu, i might be totally off course at first, but it's not exactly too late to start now. (Maybe a little)
It was dark, and the rest were eating, even those who were way better, but he never gave up and eventually succeeded. I hope the same happens for me. And i'll be totally thankful for watching this, and for Kyu for inspiring me. HAHA. Are you laughing your toe socks off at me now? I'll save my speech for when/IF i really do well. 성공 바래!
BUT don't worry, SS501 still my #1 group, and JungMin still my #1 L♥VE 영원히. And this marks the end of my retardness today. Went mad a couple times today. Ohfine, more than a couple. Laugh till cry twice. And was accused of being an alien just cause i was talking about crop circles. My McFlurry for dinner must have cured me. And melissa's birthday party was the best ever that i've attended. I won't go into details, but let me say this, i'm NOT trying to be sarcastic. I throughly enjoyed myself thankyouverymuch.
And i guess i should be sleeping now. Anneonghijumusaeyeo!

"Oh my Supergirl, 我是你的 Superman"

2009-09-28T23:54:00.002+08:00

"Oh my Supergirl, 我是你的 Superman"- Super Junior M's Supergirl
Hah. Wish JM darling would say that to me. Then again, it's really cheesy. But hey. I'd give anything to talk to him. HAHA. Maybe not anything, and only if he spoke&understood better english (not just, 'This is not gomagom, this is a cherry balllLLL! What about?!' ) or if i spoke&understood korean better.
Ok, so anyway, life is just as tiring as the week before. And there wasn't even a long weekend this week. I'm not gg night study tmr! :P but got amaths tution... T_T haven't done my supposed homework yet. Gah. I'm still wondering if I should buy the SS501 logo necklace... I want it... But $ is lacking. T_T Ottoke? And! I haven't been to grandma's house in 2 weeks! Miss them over there! And grandma's cooking... But not her forcing me to eat papaya and stuff... :P and Duchess too. Who's gna walk and bathe her? Worst part. My pink fbts are there. So i'm lacking shorts D:
I seriouly don't know how this comes out on the internet, since i'm not using it. But ohwells. Oh, and whatever aqua sherbet is, I slapped some onto my face just now. HAHA. It smells nice though. I really ought to find out what it's really for. Finally, i used my phone for music during night study. Cause got new input and wanted to hear. HAHA. And my playlist was shuffled well. Unlike my mp3 which goes by theme even when shuffled. Like there was this day where it played all SS501 songs for an hour except starting was SHINee's forever or never, and in the middle get garagaraGO! It was nice though (: and that day when i found out rain was in S'pore for F1, it kept shuffling and playing rain songs... It must have a mind of it's own. HAHA. Actually more like it reads the news? Heh.
Ohwell. I better sleep now. Really wish i could post pictures... I've got so many i want to upload... ): Gah. I better sleep... Till then... *imagine it's typed in korean* anneong!

Don't we all...

2009-09-21T13:22:00.002+08:00

Hahaha. Mommy said tt in hongkong she used conditioner as body lotion. Kinda reminds me of Kyu using some other cream as toothpaste and hyunjoong using toothpaste as facewash. Which reminds me also of smth similar i did when i was young. I used some other cream for toothpaste too. HAHA. But only once or twice... And unlike Kyu, my gums didn't bleed. LOL. Haha. That's smth in common we share! But then again, i bet millions of people have done something similar too :D

Yes, it's me.

2009-09-17T21:42:00.003+08:00

So it's been a few days... I haven't used the com yet. So anyway, what's been happening is for the past 2 days, today not included, i've been buying mags i thought i never will.
Teenage and teens. GOSH. I think they're so retarded la. But anyway, my season for that? What else. SS501. They've made me do the most unimaginable things. Like, going into comic connection, buying a taiwanese mag, IN CHINESE, buying other mags i thought were stupid, buy cds, calendars, ezlink stickersh pieces of plastic! Yeah. The things i do for them.
Anyway, i guess what. I'm dropping chem totally. For real.
And i've actually been typing this on my way to school... But the internet reception is bad... (Edit: there's smth wrong with the service or smth) I can't believe how people come to school on their own every single day. My shoulders are killing me now. Maybe it's just cause my bag's pretty heavy today. But still. Call me a spoilt brat.

Day 1 of not using com till after Os...

2009-09-15T00:15:00.002+08:00

Day 1 of not using com till after Os... Still surviving fairly well. It's been less than 24 hours since i got off the laptop anyway. And night study was... Ok? I was stonning half the time, but i think i did something. Btw, if you're wondering how come i can blog, phone, darling. Phone. Mms works, and it's free♥ I shall see how long i can keep updating. HAHA. Nothing lasts very long with me... I'll try though☻ so sad tt i can't type korean here though... :(

my last post till after Os from the computer- 안녕!

2009-09-14T02:16:00.003+08:00

I have decided not to use the laptop till after Os... It's for the good of everything and i guess it kinda 'detatches' me from the world of k-pop for now. Time to cure my obsession, and get my life back in line. HAH. This is so weird coming from me. unless there is something REALLY important to do. (and I don't mean being updated on doubleS 24/7 - eventhough that'd be interesting) Despite how difficult this seems, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Yes, I was awake during service and cell.
So i guess, all that's left for me to say is, 아자! 아자! 파이팅!
And as usual,

Dear God,
I know it's been a while, and I keep procrastinating and stuff,
but here I am again. I know You
So while I'm freezing myself in my nice cold
aircon room, I shall take time to sort things out. I really can't believe I'm
doing this, cause I feel it's soo impossible. I mean, read this lor.
Anyway, as you probably already know, I'm totally not going to be able to
go through my Os without your strength. Please help me! I'll try my best too,
and I'll leave the rest to you. I don't want to seem like I only come to you
when I need something, so I'm really thankful for everything you've given me,
including my B4 for chinese, and since I'm re-taking... 助助我! In need of a
miracle here. Sorry to trouble you, but you're the only one I know who can do
these kinda things. You're awesome :D Ahh, and i feel reealy bad for asking for
this, but please, please, please allow and enable me to go fpr the concert can?
I promise not to be overly obsessed and forget about you. 약속. And I'll seek you even more desprately than I go after them
ok? I'll try my best. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" OK
then. I'm all set. Ttyl!
사랑해,
코트니

Oh, while I'm still here...

I don't ever get sick of this...

and. my tribute to 정민 darling.

I should be studying

2009-08-17T16:17:00.005+08:00

SIGH.

I really should be studying right now, but i found myself just stoning. SO. i broke my no internet on weekdays promise to myself. SORRY~

Anyway, I've been making stuff. Like earrings and stuff for people. Oh, i made this for myself. It's a 박정민 nametag. HAHA. I can't find any ready made ones that i can BUY, so i decided to make one myself. Apparently they're in his favourite colours, black, white, silver and gold. At least according to this vid. [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnMqGgfSj4s&feature=related] But i kinda made this before I watched I think. No wait, after. OH I CAN'T RMBR. Hey! I just realised the safety pins on my pencil case are black, silver and gold too! Those were on WAY~ before I watched the vid. HAHA.

Yeah, I really should spend all this time studying. It just came to my realisation that Os are in about 8 WEEKS. I know right? Here I am... Making stuff and blogging when I should be studying. Why is it so much easier to figure a song on the piano than to do an a math/chem paper? Sigh, last song i figured was FT Island's Marry Me, in the process of doing SS501's Hana. It's an old song from their first album, but it's nice. Chords not very consistent though ): Gah.

OK. I MUST STUDY!!

I'll be back ;)

SANDY!~

2009-07-25T16:23:00.002+08:00

OMG. WHY DOES JUNGMIN HAVE A SONG CALLED SANDY?!

생일 축하합니다 태민동생! [I feel OLD]

2009-07-19T00:33:00.003+08:00

생일 축하합니다 태민동생!
Translate:
Happy Birthday TaeMin dongsaeng! Ya, for once not 오빠(oppa) hor. LOL.
But I guess it's more like 행복 때늦은 생일 축하 since it's PAST MIDNIGHT. 미안해!
Hmmm. So I survived my com fast last week! 6 days! I amaze myself. I guess I managed to do more work than I normally do. BUT, I really should be doing more!
I get really tired easily these days! I've fallen asleep in school so many times this week! I'm even typing this with my eyes half closed! (but i edited it) I had SO much K-pop news to catch up on! Like:
SS501 being ambassadors for Korea's Airport!! Woohoo! Does this mean there'll be posters and stuff with them everywhere? I hope so!! It'd be soo cool! Like, greeted by SS501 posters upon getting off the plae! It'd make the long plane ride totally worth it.
FT Island's new album came out! I'm REALLY hoping I can find the CD in Singapore! I don't want to download it like for free! It's BAD! 나쁜! Or unless I can find someone to get for me from yesasia or somrthing. It'll be like $20. Gosh. I wanted the Triple S showcase thingy! But it'll be like $60!! ): Depression.
Got other things also la, but can't remember alr.

Prelims are coming SO SOON. I'm SO DEAD. Like seriously. Os are in less than 3 months! I'm not the least bit prepared. Gah.
And here I am wasting brain cells trying to memorize the korean keyboard! I seriously need to EXPAND my korean vocab mann!

I'm probably not wearing anything special for racial harmony. Quite sad la, since it's last year already. But can't find anything! Unless a miracle happens, uniform it is.

I just realised that the guy in the Gee mv is MinHo! Ha~ Why didn't I realise earlier!
I'm way lagging in SS501 news. Anyway, the had this tiny column in teenage mag. Borrowed Sharmaine's to see. Quite pathetic hor. I hope not too many people start loving them, if not got more people to "Qiang" concert tickets with me!! I want the SUJU poster though. But i doubt I'll buy la. Still contemplating the Taiwanese mags with them in it thought, seems to have a better spread of them.
AND I want to buy FT Island's Cross & Change!! Wait, did I mention that already? Oh yes, i did.
Oh right, they'll be singing 'I Hope' and 'Marry Me' on ther comeback stage. The former is obvious cause it's their single, but the latter is my next favourite song on the album! Cause I searched it on imeem, and was just playing it through while memorizing the korean keyboard, and that was the song that JUMPED out at me the first time I heard it. So I have good taste ya? Another song I like is called 'Ugly'. HAHA. They sang a song for me!
Anyway, here's a link to the imeem playlist with the Cross & Change songs:
http://www.imeem.com/myra16/playlist/y7HGemkI/ft-island-cross-change-music-playlist/

And here's the MV for 'I Hope' 바래

:D

And I shall resume my computer fast!
나중에 봬요!

[EDIT]

YAY!!

letting go

2009-07-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

풀어놓다

It's time to let go.
My life's been taken over by Double S and Korean stuff! It's not that I don't support or love them any less, but I have to let them go before it's all taken away from me. And I wouldn't want that. Oh no I wouldn't.
So as much as it breaks my heart to do it, I have to. I'm not going to like TOTALLY like forget all about them or anything, just... I need to prioritize. I guess I've been neglecting lots of other things in my life and I need to get my life right. Gah. I should have realised this much earlier. Btw, this totally wasn't inspired by me wanting to actually start studying, but I guess that's the good that comes out of it as well. Don't ask why I'm like that. Just imagine having sat in church for around 10 hours i the past like, 24 hours attending seminars etc.
Argh. This sounds so NOT like Courtney. Maybe it's my brain malfunctioning due to severe exhaustion, but whatever. Change needed in this life of mine.

I seriously don't know how I'm going to survive. Can't imagine life without SS501 (See? I'm trying to get over my obsession here) Like I'm no longer going to be updated on all their activities and stuff. ): But like mentioned above, this doesn't mean I love them any less. I really don't and won't. They've still got that space in my heart ok? It's just that it has become an open space, it will always be there, but it's just not like barricaded anymore. Oh I think I'm talking loads of crap, but you get the point.

So I'm only going to use the com like on weekends now. Sigh.
I'm going on a com fast this week. Monday till Friday when I come home from school.
Leave me a message/email or text me.

No more refreshing allKpop every once in a while anymore... Oh man, I'll be totally lost by the end of each week.
But I hope this is for like the good of me. There's more to life than K-pop.
I'll buy the FT Island cd if they sell it in Singapore and if it's good though ;)

Dear God,
Please help me as I go on my com fast and my letting go of SS501.
Okay, maybe letting go isn't such a good word, how about, help me as I
re-prioritize my life for the more important things like You, my family and
friends and maybe studies? I really need ~~help~~ a miracle in the
latter.
I've realised you like reading my blog prayers huh? Somehow, You
seem to have responded to most of them in the most miraculous ways. But don't
get me wrong, I'm not doing this just cause I think it's going to be answered
here. I really mean it. But please please please don't let mission trip and
SS501 coming to Singapore clash! Let me experience being a stupid, crazy but
non-screamish fan while I'm here on earth ok? I might even learn something from
it. Who knows?
I'm really sorry for being too obsessed with them. I'm even
more sorry for sacrificing time with You to watch their vids and stuff. Forgive
me!! I will change. But I need your help. I'm helpless without You.
It's
been nice typing to You! Haha. It'd be really cool if You'd like hmmm, how
should I put this... Help Double S to love You more too! That'd be like awesome
mann. It's not like they don't know You... And I'm sure You love all of them
too! Way more than I do! Work with them k? I know this might sound really crazy,
but I know it's not. You know it too :)

Loving You more & more,
Courtney 코트니

lets ガラガラ GO!

2009-07-09T21:14:00.003+08:00

It's been a while!
I've been really 'busy' recently. Like, i have so many things to do, but I can't seem to find the time to do them. And I haven't really been doing anything. So idk where all that time goes.
Anyway, I LOVE ガラガラGO! I realised the only way I can add in foreign words is when I go to 'edit html'. All the trouble... Sigh.
So! The 2nd part of the SS501 MV is STILL NOT OUT. Much to my frustration/irritation/anger/pissed-off-ness.

WHY THE DELAY?!

Anyway, since my last post like eons ago, the first part of the mv was realesed. Here it is. I'm so sorry if this is like illegal or smth, I can read the thing that says WARNING (경고) and all the blahs below. And the only reason I can read that word is because of the SS501 song called warning. HA.

Hope it works. Haven't done this in eons of eons. (This meaning posting vids frm youtube)
Poor JM♥ got shot ):

Anyway, ~~patiently~~ ~~anxiously~~ waiting for the next few parts to be released. I sian of waiting already la.

And I'm kinda pissed that the full JUNGMIN solo features JiSun. Nothing against her, but totally against her singing like half the whole song. They should at least dueted or something. Love him, love the song, but I wish it was S-O-L-O.
BUT!! On the bright side, I found ANOTHER JungMin solo from their Taiwan album. It is VERY aptly titled, "Only Me". Yes, I only want him. Not ft.-ing anyone else. So I was SO HAPPY.

However, I'm a tad disappointed in them. They've been doing so many solos! What happened to SS501?! I've been describing them as SS 1+1+1+1+1. I want group songs guys! As much as I am melted by JungMin's voice, I like them as a group as well. I want my SS501 back!

Oh well. Here's something funny.

どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？

brain washing

2009-06-20T00:07:00.007+08:00

WOOHOO~
All 5 teasers for the SS501 20 min MV are OUT!
I've been waiting for forever for today's...

damn, stupid thingy why cannot copy and paste my korean words?!
fine, in 'han yu pin yin'

JUNG MIN OPPA!

he's looking sadly skinny... :(
WHY?! and here I am looking sadly fat.

Anyway, I'm really happy and can't wait for the full MV to come out, on MONDAY 22 JUNE.

Here's what I have to say to them,

Hey Kyu!
"Wuss Up" with all the guyliner? It
ain't very flattering.
Same goes for Hyun
Joong, I love your song, but, "Please be Nice" to poor Jung
Min who looks like he is probably going to be killed by the heavy
eyeliner duo. And wearing a lady's top definately does not scream "Be My
Girl" to all the pretty ladies out there.
Hyung Joon!
"Hey G!" Forgot how to spell for a moment? It's only
4 letters! G-I-R-L. Like how hard is that? Brush up on english ya? I'll try to
do that for my korean too. (Btw, you need a refund on your manicure. I'd totally
do it for free! It looks really horrible)
I really love Young
Saeng's voice! It's no doubt that he's the best of the lot, but unfortunately,
his song was but a "Nameless
Memory"... In fact, I'm not even sure if i have any memory of it.
What a waste of a wonderful voice! I guess ballards aren't really my thing.
Which is why I'm desperately trying to brainwash
myself with Jung Min's ballardy
song! You might be wondering "If You
Cannot" then how? My answer is, I really don't know. BUT, I STILL LOVE YOU ANYWAY! Eat more ok? Your nose looks faker
and faker, especially in the vid. You really should have left it as it
is :(

No offence, I REALLY REALLY LOVE ALL OF YOU.
REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY
REALLY.

HURRY UP SELL YOUR SONGS
IN SINGAPORE OK? Don't make me result to wonky ways of getting your
wonderful songs! I really don't want to.

Hope to see the you in DECEMBER! Don't come from
16-22 Dec ok?

Your very
loving but constructively critical
fan,
Courtney

And I shall end off with a letter to God again.

Dear God,
Thank you for the holidays, eventhough they are so quickly
coming to an end. I'm very sorry for not making good use of it. Forgive me. I'll
try my best for what's left of it ok? I think it is also known how much it breaks my heart that mission trip might clash with the concert. But whatever it is, You have priority, and You make the desicions ok? I know you wouldn't want to break my heart after the 2 wonderful miracles you did for me. Loves You! WAY more than JungMin ok!
Love,
Courtney

New Lappy!

2009-06-14T00:31:00.001+08:00

감사합니다아빠!

Thanks daddy for getting a new laptop! The other one was seriously dying. still wished it was green though... But i guess red is cool too :)

It's been quite a while! I don't know what to say, and it's kinda difficult to type because the kepboard is bigger which is irritating for my short fingers. Anyway, duchess is staying over this week cause my grandparents are overseas...

My nails are currently shimmery purple with zebra stripes... I'm having a picnic tomorrow with Sharmaine and Isabel... I just cleared some clothes out of my closet for missions... I'm still praying that the SS501 concert won't clash with mission trip... Still telling myself that i need to study but I'm not... Sighing over the fact that the increase volume button and walkman button on my phone are spoilt... Wanting doc marten boots and knowing I won't get them... Thinking of what to do to my nails next... Looking for the best korean songs around... Not wanting to go back to school... That's my current life in a nutshell.

I should sleep now... I'm tired.

Happy Birthday Kim Hyun Joong

2009-06-06T23:33:00.004+08:00

Firstly, eventhough it's kinda late, I'd like to wish Kim Hyun Joong 김현중

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

생일 축하합니다

I know I'm not his biggest fan or anything, but every SS501 member deserves this, just cause. IT'S SS501!! I LOVE ALL OF THEM!!

BUT! THIS IS NOT THE HIGH LIGHT OF TODAY'S POST...

There are TWO MIRACLES I wish to speak of...

#1- SS501 IS COMING TO SINGAPORE

#2- MOMMY LETS ME GO TO THE CONCERT (withough me even pleading!)

BOTH of which I have to THANK GOD for. SERIOUSLY. [see post on 28th May- prayers totally answered]

So before I get on with details...

Dear God,
Thank You SO SO much. I really don't know how else to put it, but this is truly a miracle only You are capable of. (Esp #2) And I am now pretty convinced that You DO read blogs, and answer my blog prayers :) I really really want to thank you for this. It feels like a dream. I pray that it will not clash with any other activities that I have, since the exact date is not out yet. And I really hope to repay you in the form of the november mission trip, I really want to show the people out there how real you are. I am so thankful for what you have done for me, eventhough I can be so far away from You at times. Thankyou, thankyou and thankyou so much! Love You!!

Love,
Courtney

SO, the fact that they're coming is like totally a miracle. I was like smiling to myself through-out service today, cause Joanne told me like right before service started. I was dying from not being able to scream. First person I blabbled to: Shirui. OMG. We should totally like go tog la, like the past/present shss girls or smth. Cause as far as i know Sharmaine, Amanda and RuiShi know of them too!

But I think #2 is the GREATER miracle. Considering I had to beg and plead and make deals to go to snyergy. (Like seriously) I just told her to watch abt them appearing on BOF today on tv, the part at the club. But she missed it, but anyway, it all came together, and before I knew it, she was like "You better start saving for your ticket hor" and I was totally like :D Totally came as a shock.

Anyway, I'm totally psyched. Here's a poster for their concert in Korea.

Their Asian Tour is called 'PERSONA' how lit-like mann.

Full Creds to: [http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/ss501_embarks_on_1st_asia_tour/]

Holidays? What holiday?

2009-06-02T23:26:00.003+08:00

지루하다

Okay, so I'm not as bored as I make myself out to be. I've been cheonging BOF. I really regret not watching it all when it just came out. I started on the first 2 episodes like way back in January when it first came out. WHY DIDN'T I CONTINUE?! So today I cheonged like 6 episodes, if you include my staying awake till 4.30am yesterday. OH WAIT, this morning.
Sigh, 16 more to go, or 21 if you count the 5 years later part. Even at this rate I'll take like around 4 days. BUT I NEED TO STUDY TOO!! I like totally promised myself (fine, and mommy) that I'll start cheonging for Os in June holidays. Everyone tells me that too, like must start in June.

I discovered a new scratch from yesterday's "accident". HAHA. Now I've got 2 on my hand. I like totally didn't realise until I happened to tap my finger against something and I was like, 'Why so pain ah?' Yeah. Same went for the one on my leg yesterday. Like when I was showering then kena water so ya, same reaction as today's.
Apparently I wasn't the only victim of blading this week. Ruishi called me today and was like "I fell while blading too!" HAHA. This week is a bad week for blading mann! I'm still considering if i should go tomorrow... Might be too dangerous. Haha. Mommy's not much of a help either even if i go with her. She's like WALKING. Even if i crash, it'll take her at least 5 minutes to discover my remains!

Still contemplating whether I should watch a few eps tonight... I really want to get it over and done with.
Still loving my FT Island and wanting to see them when they come to Singapore.
Still and forever loving and hoping to see my SS501.
Still waiting for MTV HEROES (various korean bands/singers) to be subbed
Still not focused on Os yet.
Still waiting for SS501's comeback! And I'd really like to get their album somehow.
Still living in my very own (self-procliamed) disaster area
Still waiting for some really drastic change in my life (good one please)

STILL WAITING FOR THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME

[cred: http://k-popped.com/2009/05/ss501s-romantic-sky-fan-meeting.html]

Sigh. [http://www.imeem.com/people/U7LTis/playlist/MmGbLL1s/ft-island-music-playlist/]

At least this has made me happy for a while.

아직

Worst Day Ever

2009-06-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

최악의 하루

Today can be considered somewhat of a bad day. The curse began at like the crack of dawn. CHINESE Os! Like WHAT COULD BE WORSE right? Yeah. But I survived it, barely. Glad it's over though.

So after that, met Sharmaine for lunch at coffee shop outside school/her house. Many other people there, including yonglin and geraldine etc. and sharmaine's dad. and a bunch of people from shss. and Ms Yew and someone with her. Then went to do her nails again. <3

"This is more depressent"
Highlight of my sucky day:
BLADING.
MOMMY LA!! I was too lazy to go one lor! But she had to keep reminding me how fat I'm getting. And she wanted to introduce me to her route which she WALKS through. So I sruvived past the horribly stinky drain. Seriously, it smells like something DIED. (Worse than Jasper farting throughout CE course on saturdays) After I got out of the stink area, I just wanted to get away from it, so i went UP this steep steep thing. Then I realised mommy wasn't walking up, but straight. I also realised that I probably couldn't get down. Waited for mommy to come 'rescue' me, but I decided to see if I would have survived it.
Apparently NOT.
I totally got flung to the ground while trying to turn into the side path. Thank God I didn't try going down that same slope that time when I was blading with Abel, I would have totally ended up in the drain since I had no intention of turning into the small side path at that time. It seriously stinks.
So that is my first fall in really long, and first caused by nothing but gravity. Previous falls were caused by like tripping on friends who tripped on twigs, or not sitting on a chair properly - it slid away as I tried to sit on it :(
After various near collisions due to the super narrow path and having to go over the horrible tiled part, we reached the beach. Alive.
The interesting/good thing I guess was that I met Shiyun and Weishi there. I don't know why but somehow I had a feeling I was going to see someone I know. Totally didn't expect it to be them though.
After a while I had to go back to meet mommy to go home.
I survived the journey home, BUT, when I got home, realised that my blades became really gross from the new route. Had to clean them with this pathetic ~~rag~~ robe string that mommy threw at me. AND, I almost couldn't take off my right side. Today was totally a BAD DAY for blading. PLUS, the're begining to get squealy, need to tighten them. Sigh.

I guess besides that my day was okay. So happy that chinese Os are over. Mommy freaking expects me to start studying tomorrow. Like W.T.H mann. Sheesh. I'm totally gna cheong BOF tonight. I accidentally logged off after loading like 2 whole episodes!! Another reason why my day sucks.

I shall cease my complaining. Still mourning over my FT Island concert. Totally don't feel like sleeping tonight.

어떻게?

Sharmaine's HJg nails

2009-05-31T11:04:00.003+08:00

페인트

Yesterday Sharmaine came over, and i did her nails! Haha. What's surprising about that? Nothing, except I like totally painted 김현중 on them. Read: KimHyunJoong. HAHA. Yea, can't believe I did that. But though it was too much, so we painted over it, but not before taking pics!

So anyway, the one with the 사랑 on it is mine. I only did one nail cause it's not that easy okay! Yep. Totally fun. Haha.

Okay, that's it for now, I needa go do chinese

Days left to chinese Os: 1

SO DEAD.

죽은

A short note

2009-05-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

빨리

I'll make this quick. I need to do chinese like really badly. I don't think I can afford anything less that B4, if not need to re-take :( Cause I'll probably end up counting it in...

SO! I've finished watching 2 eps of Family Outing. OMG. It's hilarious. I watched the one with HongKi and Taeyeon. I think 2 at a time not so nice, cause it's like either one tends to get left out. :( But it was like spread over like 20 parts mann. That's around 200 mins ( 3 hours!!) wasted :( OHNO~!! But most of it was at like at a time of which i should have been sleeping. That's bad too! :(

Anyways, I think I'm going to be spending my first week of holidays going out alot, because 2nd and 4th week got school and 3rd week, I'd better be studying at home! If not I confirm die already. :( Oh fine, I'm already dead. ARGH!!

Still grieving over my F.T Island :( Sigh... But if SS501 comes ah, I die die also have to go. I so need to get over this. 오빠! 사랑해요! Gosh, this makes me sound like some stupid crazy fan. HAHA. I'm not okay? Esp not those screamy kinds. Gosh. You'll only see me doing this here. :P

Sigh. I used 6 :( . Mann, I must be depressed or something. JAJA.

everything's happening too fast

2009-05-28T21:25:00.003+08:00

공황

For the first time in a long time, I'm dreading the weekend. Eventhough it's a long one.

Sidetrack: Mr. Law won't give me my report slip cause I didn't bring that stupid holiday study plan thing. Like I'll even keep to it if i even did it. So I won't be going to school tomorrow either. I don't want it to seem like I don't care (which i don't btw) but I really don't see the point.

Firstly, because CHINESE Os ARE ON MONDAY. And I'm so not prepared. Everything's happening way too fast, and I'm being left behind.

Secondly, I'm still greiving over the fact that I won't be going to the F.T Island concert, and that they'll be selling tix this saturday @ IMM. Utterly depressed. The only way I'm going is if some miracle happens la. Acutally, come to think of it, I'd be way pleased if I just happened to see them somewhere or something. (It doesn't help that I'm listening to one of their songs now)

넌 나쁜 여자야 넌 나쁜 여자야
nuhn na·bbeun yuh·ja·ya~ nuhn na·bbeun yuh·jah·ya~
You’re a bad woman, you’re a bad woman
남자의 가슴에 남자의 두 눈에
nam·ja·eh ga·seum·eh nam·ja·eh doo noon·eh
In a man’s heart, in a man’s two eyes
눈물나게 하는 거니
noon·mool·nah·ge ha·neun guh·ni
Are you causing tears to form?
넌 나쁜 여자야 넌 나쁜 여자야
nuhn na·bbeun yuh·ja·ya~ nuhn na·bbeun yuh·ja·ya~
You’re a bad woman, you’re a bad woman
널 사랑했는데 너 밖에 없는데
nuhl sa·rang·haet·neun·de nuh bah·gge ubt·neun·de
I loved you, I have nothing but you
결국 나를 떠나가는 넌 나쁜 여자야
gyul·gook na·reul dduh·na·ga·neun nuhn na·bbeun yuh·ja·ya
Leaving me at the end, you’re a bad woman
So anyway, still totally upset over it... :(

Lastly, the GB blog project thingy. videos are so large it's impossible to upload. Ohmann. I'm just si bugged about everything. HAHA. And i still need to do the conclusion thing! Busy.Busy.Busy.

AND FINALLY, CHINESE Os ARE ON MONDAY. Oh wait, i said that already. So I really should be doing some chinese papers now mann. REALLY.

I'm staying up all night again (: Maybe not all night, but yea. It'll kill my inner clock, but whatever. I'll adjust back by sunday.

Dear God,

It's been a while since I did this, but i hope you don't feel that I'm treating you like a vending-machine. I really need a miracle! Haha, you should know about it by now. C-H-I-N-E-S-E Os! Miracle in need! Of course I'll do my best as well. Give me strength for that, and that I can read faster! (and understand what I'm reading). And that I'll have many ideas for compo and my vocab will suddenly expand. (haha)

I know the F.T Island concert is too much to ask for, (so is seeing them along the streets or smth) but it'll be really nice if... Oh well, it's not that important. But, but... It's okay, you're more important, and I know there are many more important things than day dreaming about people I don't even know, and never will. But if there's a SS501 concert I really really want to go can? PLEASE? Another miracle would be great. Hopefully it'll be like in my dream*.

Hope to hear from you soon!

Love,

Courtney

*Dream: Like a few weeks ago, I dreamt that I went for some Double S concert. Seriously. I was with Yonglin, but we were like much older though, around 20? And it was at Marina Bay Floating Platform (like WHAT?!) The first song they sang was 'Fighter' from their first album. Really old song. Haha. THEN, MY DAD WOKE ME UP. I could have died mann! Anyway, Kyu looked super hot, Hyunjoong looked really tired and I didn't notice the rest. WHERE'S MY JUNGMIN MANN?? He was there, but somehow I had not like seen him properly before my dream ended ever so abruptly.

Call me crazy

Chinese papers here I come.

나를 미쳤다고

FT ISLAND!

2009-05-28T00:59:00.002+08:00

OMG! OMG! OMG!
FT ISLAND HAVING A CONCERT IN SINGAPORE!!

FT Island Showcase Details
Date: 27th
June (Sat)Time: 3pmVenue: Dragonfly @ St James PowerstationTicket:
SGD$100.00 :(
Sales will start this Saturday
(30th May), from 3pm to 8pm, at IMM Atrium.(Cash payment only)Fans who purchase
the tickets on the first day, will receive an exclusive FT Island poster, while
stocks last.

OMG! OMG! OMG!

“The pressure is big because this is not only FT Island’s debut perfomarnce
in Singapore, it is also our first time bringing in Korean artistes in to
Singapore for performance. If the response is good, we might even consider
bringing in Wonder Girls, SS501, or other Korean artistes to Singapore for
performance.”

I WANT TO GO!!

OMG!!

ANYONE WANTS TO TAKE ME? (I'm totally not expecting a reply, let alone a YES, but still...)
EH! MUST MAKE THE RESPONSE GOOD THEN MAYBE SS501 CAN COME!!

(cred: http://minsarang.wordpress.com/2009/05/27/news-ft-islands-singapore-showcase-on-27-june/)

double S day. Sportsday + Shopping

2009-05-27T23:51:00.006+08:00

일간 스포츠/쇼핑

Today was sports day. My very last in SHSS. That's why i decided to be nice about it and not pon. Anyway had cheer, so had to go. Very surprisingly, we got 1st for cheer. Totally expected a 2nd at most. Good lor. Frist time I wasn't rotting in some corner during sports day. I actually found it quite fun. HAHA. Can't believe I just said that.

Rushed off asap cause I was meeting Joanne at 2pm @ Somerset. After my mad rush home (public transport is always against me) and a srtugle to get ready in like 30 mins, I made it out of the house at 1.15pm! I was still slightly late though. Haha. We went to Kileny for lunch (: Kaya toast for the world. Not forgetting, half-boiled egg as well :D

Then we walked to PlazaSing. Shopped loads :) Cotton-on/Cotton-on body having sale!! C-o-B doesn't just sell undies kay, I totally got a tee there for $5 :D and then I got a skirt from C-o for like $10. I <3>

Went back to her house for dinner, then we walked over to ice-cream chefs. Hersheys choc + Horlicks + Timtams= <3>

Looking at her and ben while we were walking back and forth made me think it's kinda nice to have like a brother or smth. haha. 오빠!! Like they were talking about Infinity challenge and stuff! I wish i had someone to drown in my korean stuff too! Haha.

And i totally didn't study chinese today. Ok, I read 手册 in the train, but still. Alrights, I better sleep now. Chinese is like totally causing my brain to be in a panic, it's just that you can't really see it. I'm just dying.
"When you give others a piece of your mind, you loose the peace of your mind"- random quote I saw somewhere today.

저 좀 도와 주세요!!

another hot, boring sunday

2009-05-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

I NEED TO STUDY CHINESE!!
I'm like so screwed for chinese Os if I don't start now mann!
There was no cell today cause of CEC yesterday. So i woke up late, ok, not that late also, and had 2 doughnuts and a double cheese sandwich for breakfast. Fattening much.
That's about it. Oh, and Denise made me earrings. HAHA. GREEN ones too! How'd she know? THANKS! Although she'd never see this anyway. I wonder if she got my message.
I really ate too much today, especially fattening stuff! BAD.BAD.BAD. Need to loose weight desperately! Proud of myself for turning down bubble tea at like 10.30pm last night. HAHA.
Time to say goodbye to my hot pink nails. :( I'll miss your conspicious-ness.
STUPID ELEARNING THING CANNOT GO IN!! HOW TO DO TRAVEL DECLARATION LIKE THIS?? DON'T MAKE ME STAY BACK FOR IT. SUPER WASTE TIME!
If i see this "Oops! This link appears to be broken." once more I'm so not going to care anymore. Useless thing. Like that if school closes for swine flu or something then good la.
And some people can be so contradictory. Since there's no one perfect in the world, no one's going to be exactly the way you want them. Because that would be perfect.

넌 나쁜 여자야

after 10

2009-05-23T23:33:00.002+08:00

늦은 밤
I realised that I like coming home late at night. It makes me feel that I've made full use of my day. Like yesterday came back at like past 12. That was cause there was prayer meeting la, but like mommy and daddy left for supper like much earlier. I left church at like 11 something. I was like just waiting around to see where everyone was going (plus I didn't want to eat supper. Fattening much. And esp not with parent's cell) But apparently most of everyone went home with their parents, so after a while I just decided to go find momo and pops.
It was kinda nice walking down the stairs all alone. Self-professed loner here. The guys hadn't gone off yet, so walked out with them. Good in a way. It was really like desserted and stuff and drunk people walking through DTE are amusing but freaky. Glad I wasn't alone then. HAHA. Bur seriously, tt guy was hilarious. He was singing "A Whole New World" and like shouting, "Thankyou! Have a goodnight everyone! Bye!" and stuff like that. XD
Anyway, I went for cheer practice in the morning. It was okay... I just hope I don't embarrass myself or anything. I'm so not made for these kinda things.
Rushed home and off to church again. *CONFESSION: I fell asleep during service. Super tired la. I was really rushing around a lot. Then there was CE courses after that. I didn't fall asleep! Cause we were sitting in the front la. But it was rather interesting also, so that's probably why I stayed conscious the whole time. NOTE: SHSS CELL people are NOT TONE DEAF. At least the current batch. HAHA.

To end off, I think it's always best to like prepare yourself for the worst all the time, so you don't get dissappointed. And if you're going to do somthing that you know is not the most popular thing to do, don't expect the world, or anyone at all, to empathise/sympathise with you. You already know it's not going to be a drift in the clouds.
[Totally no link]

당신은 왜 좋아하는가 그것을 인가?

GUESS WHO'S BACK?

2009-05-22T16:17:00.003+08:00

안녕하세요!

MY BLOG IS ALIVE.

Ok, so I was reading Michelle's blog and i decided to revive this little feller.

I'm not really done with all the 'furnishings' and stuff. As you can see it's still rather 空 not sure if this is the right word but whatever.

Let me see, nothing big happened today, except that i went to school early to make CLASS FLAG. Like seriously, a class flag. For sports day. I wonder if the fabric paint dried on time... If not... SMUSH. And fine, it wasn't all that early, my normal time. Which is like 1 hour before school starts...

Oh, and then had chinese THE WHOLE DAY. I was like playing tic-tac-toe and other paper games with Vinnie when we weren't doing work. Surprisingly, I didn't sleep at all!

Next BIG THING that happened, like an hour ago. I DROPPED MY DARLING PHONE. At a really awkward angle too. How awkward? Awkward enough for the cover, battery and phone to be about 5-10cm away from each other and I could see the insides of my phone from the sides. Lots of metally bits. It has since regained consciousness though.

OHOH! and... I DRANK SUNNY 10 GRAPE SPARKLING SODA. :P (From my spongebob cup with the sucky straw thingy)

I think I shall make use of my revived blog to improve my english. Vocab especially. Must start using cheem words and intellectual sentences!

Alright. I really should be doing chinese now. 'O's are in 10 days.

kaige

my bio spa is so screwed

2008-10-22T15:46:00.002+08:00

OH MANN! i so so messed up my bio spa.
firstly, i didn't know we had to measure the length of the split of the plant thing. i only realised after i submerged it in the sucrose. and it's not like i could re-do everything. there were 6 petri dishes! so i just crapped everything to be around 1cm. and while pouring in the sucrose i forgot that i labled the dishes already, so i just pour pour pour, then i realised it wasn't according to what i labled so i had to switch the lables. and then, while waiting for the 20 mins i suddenly rmbred the 6 squares of graph paper. was wondering what it's for, so i looked around and everyone had it under their petri-dishes, so i shoved mine under too. then when my 20 mins passed, i took out the spinach to measure. but nobody else was doing it, so i thought i was like faster or smth. but nobody ever took their's out. so after happily measuring and stuff i still found it weird that no one else was measuring, so i read again. WE'RE SUPPOSED TO READ THE DIFFERENCE IN LENGTH FROM THE GRAPH PAPER BELOW. i was like, WTH LA! so i just threw back all the spinach stalks into the perti-dishes. didn't even bother to fasten them down anymore. i was so certain i'll fail already. and then ms goh walked past and she was like, "how did you measure ah?" and i was like "take out and measure with ruler" with a 'i know i'm wrong' face. and she like tapped my head.
arrrr, i'm so gna fail already. but i'm not going to cry or anything. in fact i find it rather amusing.

I GOT A NEW FAVOURITE MOVIE!!

2008-10-20T03:02:00.000+08:00

I'VE GOT A NEW FAVOURITE MOVIE!
http://www.crunchyroll.com/library/Do_Re_Mi_Fa_So_La_Si_Do_-_Movie

LOVE IT.

today is just wrong

2008-09-10T17:48:00.002+08:00

today is just wrong. like not right, wrong. it kinda started in chinese, but i'm not too sure cause i was sleeping for like half of it. oh wait, it started in the morning. shujun, michelle, they all were going to find mrs. ho to ask some chem stuff. but she was in a meeting, so they asked ms. goh instead. i'd never have though if that but anway. that was weird.
so after that was chinese, was sleeping. not unusual, but recently re-picked it up. oh then was cd. went to library cause mrs. ho was like re-teaching ionic equations. i hate it much.
then recess :D
after that was maths. i'm so failing the log test. left like three quaters blank i think. since the morning my minds been practically ablank. so ya. and then had 4 peridos of chem. make that 5. cause anna lim practically dragged till 3.15pm. that sucks much. so add that up with the hour of chem during cd, that makes it 7 periods of chem in one day. was supposed to go for chem tuition, but hello? i've had more than enough thanks. so i went home. and mom bought macs for lunner. that's lunch/dinner. fattening. fattening. fattening. i've been bailing out of my diet like a million times already. i have to get back into it.
so i'm currently looking for a new blogskin, kinda time consuming to make one, but i want to. mmhmm. oh and i think shiyun's birthday on facebook is wrong. i think. think.
omg. i only have 5 people online. that's really little. even at unearthly hours like 3am i have like 3. what's this mann? ok, i'm going all weird again.
got chinese tuition at 7pm :'( help.

my new favourite movie :D

2008-09-03T10:48:00.002+08:00

OH OH OH OH.
i got a new favourite show! yeah, was watching until 3am again... i know it's bad, but it's worth it for a good show okay. actually i finished at 2.53am. mmhmm.
http://www.crunchyroll.com/group/CRSeries_-_My_Sassy_Girl_-_Movie
i know it's a really really old show. like from 2001, that's like when i was what, primary 2? but it's a really good show la. and the guy's really famaliar, i think he was in some korean drama grandma used to watch like when i was young. i think it was one of those 7pm shows. and i rmbr i thought that guy was really ugly. haha. i don't know what show it is though. i suddenly want to watch korean drama's frm long ago. i want to know what i used to watch. yeah. and there's gonna be an american version coming out this month i think. heard it's not as nice, but i want to watch it anyway.
oh and yesterday was so studyish. had a/emaths tuition in the morning then got bio at 1pm. didn't eat lunch till the break, and i ate macs la! grrrr, spoil my diet. went yonglin's house cause bio ended early. she got her soul la. haha. as in the samsung phone-soul. right. it's okay i guess, but i don't think i'll ever get it cause the touch pad kinda bugs me. i think i want the omnia la. touch screen! haha. but idk. i really want a new phone, but i don't know which phone i want. any recommendations? :)

biterace!

2008-09-01T18:19:00.004+08:00

ohoh. today was biterace. and in my group were like shirui, jeremy, joel and abel. and we wore blue.
so anyway, our first clue was the beach road one. so everyone like ran and stuff, and we strolled to towards downtown east while everyone ran for the 354. we were too lazy to walk back, cause we over shot a bit already. so we got in the train, (so we did run, but only up the escalator), and we saw like i netballers there. and we were like, oh, good thing we didn't run. and as we walked through the train we saw like other groups as well. and then when we got out at lavender, i went to top up ezlink, and then when i walked over to them the vb guys were like there too. like omg la, they cheonged like mad out of church and we ended up in same train. haha. and apparently we were going to the same place, but they ran off. so expected.
so we wandered around for like 40 mins. halfway we went to 7-11 and shirui bought a slurpee. and after really long, this group kinda helped us. thanks so much! if not we'd be wandering around so much longer. and we finally found them. and we had chocolate fondue with marshmallows and waffels. the waffels were fantastic la. and we had to finish all the chocolate, so abel drank it with the slurpee straw. eww. but it's chocolate! so it probably wasn't that bad.
next we went to geylang. seriously. we found the place quite fast la. i think it's cause we took so long at the previous one this one felt so much faster. it was like 2 cups of soyabean. 3 pieces of this pastry thing and a bowl of salted bean curd. which is like tau huay in wanton soup. with like kiam chye and cai po and srping onion. which is actually okay, until you taste the tau huay. it's like yuck.
then we went to ubi. was also quite fast la. and we ate wanton mee. it was nice. like REALLY GOOD. yeah. our final stop was tampines st.21 blk 201c. yeah. we took bus 15 from ubi. the only bus we took, besides to the mrt. i think saw some guy from our school lor, in the bus. but anyway i know that place one lor, just didn't know it was tampines st.21. yeah. walked really far.
eventually found it, and we had to eat kuay chap. and it looked like damn gross, like it had been sitting there for hours. and we kinda asked how long it was there for, and she was like "oh, from about 9 or 10 plus?" and we all gagged. and we were like 'what??!' and then we realised she thought we asked how long she was there for. the food was there for around 10 mins. we ate some of it, and left most of the intestines. then we took 3 back to church. and we just strolled. until we got to the front of church then i think the netballers were right behind us so we ran. kind off anyway. but like some of them went toilet or smth, so we reached earlier than them. we were 5th i think.yeah.
first were the volleyballers, second was sharmaine they all, third, idk who they are. yeah. we actually knew the first 2 before we reached la, cause jeremy called sharmaine and ya. shirui and i were like D: when we found out who reached first. cause while we were at the kuay chap there our station person told us one group reach already but we didn't know who. but i guess they deserve it lor. considering they're the only group that ran. after that shirui was like, did you realise they're wearing old camp shirts and stuff, so she was like, saying smth like they came back so sweaty and yucky that they gave them old shirts to change into. as in new old tees. and then i was like 'oh ya hor'. it was kinda hilarious when i realised. gosh, can't imagine how gross they were to actually get old tees to change into. haaha. eww.
so after tt went to eat fries and drink with shirui at tea valley, then sharmaine they all came. cause their prize was $25 tea valley voucher. oh, and did i mention first prize was $40 ben & jerry's voucher. mmhmm. ohwell, better that they got it, cause i think they're less likely to grow fat. haha.
going to school tomorrow ): sigh. which everyday was as fun as today.

i went back

2008-08-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

i know this is kinda late la. but anyways, went back to rosyth on friday. was deciding whether or not to go, eventually did and i didn't regret. eventhough didn't see any teachers. yeah, defeats the purpose eh?
ya, but met my old classmates, and that was worth the trip la, i miss everyone! yeah. lots lots lots. took pics. but like super few

and you know what? the SADDEST THING EVER happened the day before teachers' day.

MR. RASH LEFT US. yeah. no, he didn't die, he's gna work somwehere else. yeah.. everyone was like crying like mad. especially the drama club people. yeah, they got it the worse. and i know very well now why they're on drama. mmhmm. baked him a cupcake with a card and helped to pass shiyun's card too.

actually i wasn't crying one la, then michelle go class and cry then i cry also... then after recess at 3E there cry again, but not as much already. no more tears. but really very sad la.

gonna miss you loads mr.rash (:

lit will never be the same again.

disaster

2008-08-27T17:24:00.002+08:00

came back from camp like on sunday. and was at my ahma's house the whole day, but went home a while to finish up my korean drama then went back. ohoh and tinsley got me this squidward lego thing. i want to find spongebob and partick!! so thanks loads tins! :D
and and then ya, olympics over liao. i felt this year's went by super fast, cause out of like what 16 days, i was at camp for 7-8 days. so tt's sad. really sad.
made a wonderful batch of cupcakes with grandma on monday, attempted to replicate it today, but it's been a disaster. a horrible horrible disaster. yea. i hope it's at least edible if not i'll have to suffer the guilt of throwing away a whole batch. they've come out more flat than they're supposed to. oh well, i have my muffin mix.

i did my homework already

2008-08-18T17:30:00.002+08:00

i've been facebooking for really long. haven't done that in a while.
and omg. i can't believe what she said ok.
cause i didn't go for gb on sat cause i was feeling a little under the weather. and then she called to tell me tt my commitee doing smth for leadership camp. and i said i won't be going the next day cause i wasn't feeling well. and she was like 'then shouldn't you be sleeping so you can rest and come tomorrow?' and i was like 'my mom told me to rest at home'. is that in anyway a crime?
today i kinda found out she was saying told someone that 'she think she's god ah? knows that she'll be sick tomorrow' like WTH. if i'm not feeling too well it's not very likely a miracle will happen over night and i'll be perfectly fine the next day. even if i'm better i still should rest right? and i thought we were taught to care for one another. how is working us to death and making resting when sick seem like a henious crime be caring in anyway?
just hoping i'm everything you're not.
i don't even know why i still want to go for camp. it's definately not for you to pick on me or anything, it's because i'm obliged to because of the people i actually care about and i don't want to leave to struggle on their own. unlike you. so stop treating us like that. we know you hate us, but for the sake of everyone you don't have to make it so obvious.

alive!

2008-08-15T14:04:00.005+08:00

helloos! sorry for the temporary death. i'm back (:
ohoh i'm gna blog abt NDP and national camp. ya ya. ndp was kinda fun i guess, and i think i'm going to miss it. anyways here are some pics. thanks to kaijing :D ohohoh! and i met sinlee at ndp! haha, long time to see lor.

kaijing, isabel, me, tabs me, isabel, kaijing
me, tabs, kaijing we're supposed to be pretending to be dead
tabs, me, isabel, kaijing
us and ma'am gerine

us and sir gary. miao! (sorry, i just had to say that. you know gary the snail-miao? right.)

us and sir dan. i still think he reminds me of sze ern lor. sorry!

eh. them and sir harrison. a.k.a BW. don't ask. inside joke. i was eating at that time. hehheh.
yep. and national camp! it feels like this dream that i just woke up from. and i think probably a lot of people don't remember who i am, cause i think i'm like super anti-social. i'm sorry la, it's not that i want to be like that, i'm just like that. oh by the way i'm from Golf division. yeah. golf! balls! and this is like the millionth time i'm saying this, if you talk to me i'll talk too, so i'm not that anti lor just talk to me! yep.
first day was like kinda dazed still cause stayed over at GB hq. but anyways, when we reached we had to split into our divisions and i was like really out la. idk, i always feel like that. so ya. there wasn't any introduce yourself thing, so i'm not sure if i know everyone, and i think i forgot alot of people's names. that's bad! but i wonder if i'll recognize them if i like see them around. anyways, we had to like tent, and cannot be with people of same cca. which is like bad. i shared tent with tze hui, jia ching (i think) and oops, i forgot her name. actually i not that tent one lor. but anyway.

first activity was kayaking! had to carry the kayaks down, super heavy sia. and then keep having to raft up, so not so fun la. and had to like switch kayaks in the middle of the sea...

next was the jetty jump thingy. it was fun lorh! but only went once. i kinda landed on my ass. haha. and it's soo hard to swim with a life jacket. the person at the stairs was like 'eh! you making a lot of waves leh!' i don't know why oso.

and then bathed and had dinner and we went to sleep like super early. hehheh.

next day first activity was archery. it's actually quite fun, although my aiming kinda sucks. but at least i kena the yellow thing once lor. i like the heavy wood one better than the plastic one, got more control. next was campfire organisation. i thought we'd be doing something or like help to prepare for the campfire lor, end up is some super boring talk. which was good, cause i caught a short nap.

and then was the high elements stuff, felt really sian and was too lazy to wear harness and stuff, so didn't go. but went the tunnel thing. quite okay lar, just kinda slippery. and then the cpr thingy. it's kinda like same as when doing first aid badge, but the thing was like half body one. and didn't get to do the flight simulation thing, just go throw paper plane only. then at night had 'cheer' practice with H. and then horny balls came about. horny+golf BALLS=horny balls. yeah.

next day had team buliding games. it's like shouldn't that have been first? like last day everyone going home them come build team, abit tehh right? our first part was the number one. i lagged once. next was the trust walk thing. quite okay lor, i think we got the easier one, which is good cause the un-blindfolded guy so wasn't helping much. don't rmbr him telling us if got stuff infront or not la. or maybe i deaf. but anyway. then was the water pipe. ohmygosh. we were probably the slowest team ever. no thanks to the 'scientist' omg. he talk like non-stop one lor. and the human foozeball thing, no comment.

next was the lowropes. it was rather team building as well la. and it was fun too. i like the thing where you sit on the thing and swing. tt's fun. overall was just fun la.

then was rock climbing/abseiling/maze. didn't get to go abseiling. so sad. but was quite pathetic also la, so short distance, slanting somemore. the maze was okay lar. like a longer version of the tunnel. pitch dark again. i was supposed to be like right at the back, but it's kinda freaky, you know if like someone suddenly like taps me or smth. so got some guy to stand at the back. and i was like behind jasena, so like my hand kinda tired lor. and the part where suddenly stand up her butt was in my face. but at least i didn't announce to everyone lor. like someone did, idk who though so dark. and somehow they found a fork inside.

lastly was the nature walk. not really a nature walk lor. but did the same thing as p5 camp but on a smaller scale. we were oinks! so we like walked around blindfolded oinking. fun lors. they saboed this guy, like we all find our groups and remove blindfold already then leave him wandering around on his own, damn funny larh. then was the pingpong ball thing. i think we destroyed nature more than anything else.

then we had dinner. then had 'cheer' practice again. i billy banja-ed with liane. haha. now everytime we see each other we're like "horny balls!" and then we do the hand sign thing. and then was campfire. samantha and i were like super extra lah. we like sit at the back there and stone. and campfire was really pathetic, so no good memories of tt. it was the pathetic-est campfire ever. so much for scouts and their spectacular campfires and stuff. i think it's also cause got too many people lor. so it's not like warm and cozy like campfires usually are. and the proportion of campers to size of campfire is like 1000:1 so it was equivelant to like lighting a match and throwing it onto a couple twigs. sec 3 camp was so much better lor.

then everyone was signing shirts and stuff. yea. didn't sleep so early, so ya.

next morning when i woke up i couldn't open my eyes la. so i wore glasses. yeah. everyone took pics and stuff. then after walking to the tent place it was a super breif split back to uniform groups. then we went back to singapore. didn't take any pics, because i brought my old phone cause i forgot to charge. so ya.

hobbled home on 81 and went to sleep :)

my poor ezlink card

2008-06-04T17:03:00.002+08:00

went to school for the lit thing again today. and on my way to school something tragic happened to my poor ezlink card! i dropped it in the drain. it's like omg, what am i gonna do. i watched helplessly as my spongebob landed face down in the drain. at least it was on the dry part. i had no idea what to do so i just went to school. and when jolene came i was like 'you know what happened?!' ya, nothing i could do about it, so i just borrowd a few coins frm jolene.
then after the lit thing, was walking to the bus stop and was like telling with me. haha. and then charmaine was like saying it's possible to get it out, cause she dropped 10cents in before, and she needed it to take bus i think, so she actually went to get it. so she helped me open the drain cover, but it was like so deep! didn't mind going in, but scared i couldn't climb out. so for a while i just sat on the other drain cover with my legs hanging into the drain. i think by then got a bunch of like sec1 or 2 bb guys plus one of their oldie seniors, and the oldie guy kinda walked over to see what happened, and then he got one guy to pick it up. (:
he like just hopped in, threw it out, and then hopped out like that.
so i could go home. THANKS! whoever you are! idk who it is though. haha. ohwells. if you ever read this, thanks so much :D
ya, and then went home. partially packed my bag already, leaving tomorrow morning!
i love ziplogs! everything in my bag is in a ziplog of some sort. almost everything.
can't wait for tmr! can't wait to see their reaction when they see us! (:

'the challenge'

2008-06-01T09:45:00.002+08:00

was up since like 6 am yesteray, cause had to go for 'the challenge' thing. actually i was just a reserve, but had to take over nicole cause idk what really happened to her back, but ya.
starting everyone was like running la. our meeting point was hougang mrt there. and first place was under some void deck, and to play some card game, then next was some rubbish dump area, we had to go INSIDE to build a house of cards. but i guess since having gone to tuas incineration plant, it's like nothing compared to it. then had to 'interview' some foreign cleaner, then give them some money.
then next stop was some playground. had to make a straw tower the height of the shortest person. yay glynis! wanted to bring it back, but it kinda came apart on the way, and it rained, so it got all wet.
next stop was lunch. had to feed isabel la! wonder if this makes someone jealous. haha. chicken rice, so not so bad. some ate noodles. haha. made her eat chilli.
next stop was just squeezing out toothpaste and tryong to put it back in. geraldine did it! but not all of it la, just abit.
then we had to head back.
quite stupid la, we were at exit c and exit b was just like less that 50m away, and we went through underpass. running like a bunch of idk whats. cost us lots of time i think. came in 11th. then went back to hq.
idk if i'm going for national camp. it's like all ugs combined every alternate year and for sec 3s only, which meant the sec 4s didn't go. but it sounds kinda good. but it's like we'll kena split, so i'll be with strangers, which i don't like/want. cause i'm anti-social. it's not that i'm not friendly or anything, i think it's just that i'm not a social butterfly or that kinda thing. ya, it's just not me.
so idk. anyway, we're only gg if there's space, so idk. it's from august 11-14th. will miss 4 days of school ): gonna break my 100% attendance ):
idk, gotta hand in by tmr. sobs.

mardi gras

2008-05-23T23:01:00.002+08:00

just came back from jose's school's mardi gras thingy. where my fake mohawk felt so at home. cause many other people were wearing weird clothes and stuff. i'm so gonna laugh at myself in a couple months or a year. but ohwells.
saw nicole! as in the one in my class in primary 1 and 2! she's like in jose's class now. heard she found out i knew jose when like jose and yvonne were talking abt my hair or smth. haha. and she was like courtney what? and i forgot what else jose told me.
idk, but i think 7 bucks is kinda ): i'm broke now. like just a couple cents...
ya, but was kinda ok i guess. there was this guy dressed in those roman gladiator thingys. and his helmet had the fluff thingy which looked like my hair. haha. zenon mentioned that before too. haha
ya, gonna watch my show nows :D

last day of school

2008-05-23T14:01:00.002+08:00

the holidays have like officially started :)
was like very boring today. i mohawked again. and in the hall kena caught by mr.K, but didn't really care, just bundled into 2 halves then after getting out of the hall i let it down again.
and then went back to class, sat around, took report slip. passed everything except a math :(
and michelle forgot to bring the edusave thingy, so went home with her, then she take, then met her to go school again. and liane asked me to help her pass the forms. i didn't, but asked avryl to help me. she, yonghwei and jasper were like 'what did you do to your hair!' at me la, cause they like saw from second floor. ya. and i'm supposed to help glynis tyep some chinese thing.
ya.

council commendation

2008-05-22T21:19:00.002+08:00

my mohawk was missing today :(
today was a really busy day. i am so so tired.
started in the morning, during announcements i had 3 things to attend to at once, and i rmbred dalton said i need to meet ms. tan the home econs one for i guessed was for food thing for commendation. but didn't, cause couldn't find her andi was too busy.
had to collect consent forms, which some didn't have, got to meet for those helping in commendation, and for pure lit. which i couldn't attend either so i asked michelle to help me attend. and was running between study corner and d&t void deck. was super hot. then went up to put bag, then went to look for sec 2s but the were having interclass, then ran back to d&t where 3G/H/J were. and then played poison ball. was just sitting there, didn't get hit. then played that thing we do all the time for morning exercise during gb camp, the caterpillar scissor/paper/stone thingy. me and michelle were like keep doing the same thing kinda on purpose so we didn't have to join anyone esle. were just sitting on the floor doing rock->scissor->paper then went to creativity hall to watch some show abt kellogs. was sleeping. and ate some of shujun's bread that she brought.
then had recess. then went hall, for some drama thingy and then had captain's ball. just sat with elizabeth. and liane betrayed her own class. was so funny at that point. haha. and then went back to class and did nothing in particular, then went down to gb, room. passed hall, met the sec 2s there. didn't have key, waited and waited, mdm li came, talked to us a while. rished to change went back to gb room, was a mad mad rush.
and then went to d&t to meet. and i shan't go on, just a series of mad mad rushes to and fro of gb room and d&t. eventually were stationed at ccr there to do ushering. and when i saw the booklet thingy, omg. bursted out laughing. guess who was on the front page. tinsley. haha. at first i was abit doubtful. but i can confirm it's him la. i mean, how many people in bb can look so identical. they were in full-U btw. so ya. i poached one to show him. i told him, and he was like, 'what. really. let me see!' smth like that. haha. ushering was ok. but had to do abit of running around, cause there was gb ndp and syf going on, and had to show them where to go etc. oh and at one point, went past the general office there. weishi was there, she saw me, so i like smiled back. and like weijie (idiot frm class) was there too and he had that eh? face. and i tried to give a 'i wasn't smiling at you idiot' face. was kinda weird. haha. after that saw her again when going down the stairs and she was like ' you look (something)' hmm. i wonder what. was just like uhhhh...
then had to fetch stuff frm home econs room and dic and was really busy!
then had to serve food! was kinda fun, except at first, had to kiap beehoon with my left hand, and after a while my had was like shaking. so i changed hand and let jesslyn do the dumpling thing. love doing food, very fun. we koped some food. like those destroyed lookinh ones.
ya, and after that, like after changing, the sec 4s and like yanlin, isabel and i were just sitting in agape talking. they were talking abt eating shit etc. super funny.
then went home. took 81 and was really tired. fell asleep a couple times. then isabel replied me on smth, then i woke up, then i type half way i fell asleep, then i woke up, continued, and fell asleep again. the person next to me mush have been like, *gives sceptical look* but i didn't miss my stop.
and so i'm home. i think i gotta sleep soon... very very tired.

sports day ):

2008-05-21T13:41:00.003+08:00

sports day was today. and i did my fake mohawk. which got me very varied reactions.
happened to meet shujun, isabel and natasha at the entrance. then waited for yonglin. she was like 'so ugly la!' isabel like took a pic of it. and ya. i think there were alot of other people starring at me. but i don't care. i'm usually worried what people think abt me, but when it comes to like my hair and clothes, i guess i have my own unique sense of weirdness and nothing's going to change that. especially if i'm trying to prove a point or smth. (see yesterday's post on high socks) and srpots day as usual was like kinda boring. just sit there. but this year just seemed very different. glad i didn't have to run or anything, cause i'll probably end up looking like a horse with my hair like that. and idk but isabel was like, 'your hair very nice to touch' and she kept like ruffling it up and down. hahaa. and there were like other people also la. but ahbel was like next to me.. :)
oh and we got 2nd for like the sec 3 level
and then went home. i'm so tempted to go and buy my sandals later. but i'll have to pay for it myself. so i think i'll wait.
i <3

inter-ug drill com

2008-05-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

today was inter-UG drill competion day. the reason i've been coming home so late everyday from like wednesday to saturday. the reason i was limping on saturday.
but before that,
today i pulled my socks sky high to piss off annalim. but she didn't do attire check. and mrs. ho said i was too attention seeking. like whatever! so i was kinda like darn. and liane was like, 'ya la! got no show to watch!'
and then had this hall thingy. some 'magic show'. then went to audutorium with 3G for 'creative writing workshop'. and was so crap la. and was made to sit all the way at the front like every teacher makes us. and it was freakin cold. and then yonglin told mrs. (caroline) wong, and she LOWERED the temperature. like total opposite of what we wanted. so we kinda dahsed out during the 5 min break. and after that, saw the temperature thingy at the back. it was 16 degrees. so they offed it. and then onned it again. and i was shivvering like mad. eventhough i was wearing yonglin's orange gloves from ice-skating that i was returning her.
then finally got to eat. after like forever. had the arts treat thingy. only like watched the drama one. cause couldn't hear/see anything else. come to think of it drama might have been quite fun la. i mean even joyce is in drama. and i think i'm more drama then her. kinda regrets a little. elizabeth should have dragged me along when she was almost gonna join! (she quitted cause she didn't really know the ppl there) but considering how much i hated mr. rash then, i wouldn't have joined for a thousand bucks.
and was gonna was e to dare me to walk around the canteen with my sprout for min. $10. she found sponsors, but dunno why it never got carried out. :(
and jose came back!!
oh oh, drill com.
for lower sec our sec ones and 2 twos went first! like scary! but i think they were fantastic considering they had like a crash course on drill for like the past dew days. and next was ncdcc I. was quite good lor. which explains why they got first. *snorts* and then was bb. oh it was sad. then went out of the boundary. and idk, but it must have been pretty bad for their commander to be crying. was some sec 2 i've never heard of. and then was ncdcc II. they were like severly short of people. they had like 11 people! so there was a gap. and plus commander was 12 la. which was like cornelis, who got like best lower sec commander. like D: he's freaky la. and then was npcc. don't remember much except they got second, and their commander walks without bending his knees. which looked kinda odd.
and then was upper sec. we went first. cause the order was the same. was kinda fun. but i kinda wrecked this part of tunder panander or whatever it's called/spelt. i am dua! but idk why it came out as saa. and it kinda came out before jazzlyn. so there was this point it was just like you don't know what's being shouted. but was going quite fast, so can't really hear, but i still feel bad abt it. but we got second overall! was kinda shocking. but in a good way i guess. and then ya. ncdcc I got first. AGAIN. and one of their commanders got best for upper sec as well. *sighs* and then was bb. dunno why but it came out kinda weird. like it wasn't according to the format. didn't see whether they went out of the boundary, but it was um.. different? and then ncdccII and npcc. was very apparent a certain someone wasn't there. cause there wasn't an obvious dip in height. and their tunder panander is so weird. like just weird!
and ya. mentioned the results already, so it was a happy thing. went home quite late. got daddy to pick me up on his way home.
ya, i guess you could say today was quite fun (:
sports day tmr! can't wait to see our class cheer :D haha shujun. CLICK!

fun day

2008-05-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

today was cell fun day!
oh and melissa stayed over last night. and then we went for cell together. it was ok i guess. then went to the playground. was more fun there. haha. and then had the angel and mortal reveal thingy. ya. everyone kinda knew their angel already so it wasn't very successful. haha.
and then went for lunch at elias mall. then walked home with melissa and shi yun, shi rui and glen. he didn't drive today. was so hot la.
wanted to go swimming with melissa but couldn't find my spare costume. so didn't.
then went for the bbq for timmy's 'welcome back party' haha. he's going back in like 3 months i think. so ya. didn't barbeque much cause of lenses. drank lots. haha. ok not alot la. but i don't get drunk or anything. haha. mommy allows me la. so i'm not illegal. omg. nicky's face was so red, i took a pic of him next to a pink plate. they look like twins. :P
and took a pic of this funny thing i saw. it's some army thingy that belongs to tinsley. it's like this vest thingy with a million pockets and pouches. and when he was emptying it, it was like all sweets. and he says you can fit bottles of coke too. haha. but can't upload a pic cause my phone to computer got problem connecting. it keeps saying no phone detected. but the safely remove thing got lor. ahhh! so pissed.
ohwells. got other things to do now

my 300th post!

2008-05-17T02:03:00.002+08:00

THIS IS MY 300th POST
not alot, i know. today was really really mixed i guess it got from not very good to well it ain't that bad afterall.
started rather horribly. cause mrs anna lim came back. gah. wish she'd go on course and never come back. i kinda like mrs. ho now i guess. now i think she's better. and omg, you won't believe what anna lim did to me this morning. she always picks on my socks. like after tug-of-war with my socks they were like 1cm above my shoeline already, and she was like, 'can go higher' and omg. she made me stand and stand for so long. and my socks were already freakin high. i got so pissed i just pulled them all the way up, and she was like ' not so high la' by then i was like freakin pissed with her already la. likw everyone was sitting already. and it's not like just that. like i was conplaining during drill practice and yanlin and liane were like, 'ya! i saw!' gosh, was so pissed. when i went back to class i pulled my socks all they way up. but had hall the whole day, so put them back to normal cause was too hot.
when tuesday comes i'm so gonna pull my socks as high as possible.
and yea, hall was pretty much as usual la. watched that show we watched during cme last year.and then recess and then hall again.
after school had drill practice again. was quite ok i guess. i'm kinda ok with drill cause it's like my only form of exercise. as long as no hentak. poor sec 1s. haha. but then again, been there done that. was fun like commanding them. haha. and like teaching them too. except for some or rather someone who really pissed me off. like really badly, worse than annalim. if it wern't for the lots of other people there, and that i was in school and there were teachers, i so felt like shouting some bad word really really loudly. but then again, i don't really say really bad stuff cause ya. i try not to. but i was this close to saying it. and really loudly too. and i figured i'm not the only one who feels this way. and i'm glad.
oh God, help me!
apart from the fact that i was like half dead. and my feet felt like i just shopped the whole day non-stop i was ok i guess.
and then went home with joyce. had dinner and locked myself in my room with the lappy (laptop).
and watched last episode of survivor!! omg! amanda so should have won! haha. parv is such a stabber. this season was really good. glad i followed all the way. love erik's handwriting! he writes so nicely on all they votey things. and he's the dumbest survivor ever. i so agree. but i want his job. ice-cream scooper! sounds so me. and this season probably had the most injuries and stuff. and the most blind sides.
oh i really need to sleep now. gotta wake up at 6.45am :( isabel says must report at 7.30am. sigh. gb again. but we're going to the animal resort! :D
better sleep. wait my eyes too tired cannot wear contacts :(

4 days to high sock day!

drrrrrrrr...

2008-05-15T21:12:00.002+08:00

i'm so so tired! was in school till around 6.30 cause got drill practice. cause inter-ug coming up. don't see the point la. as far as i know we come in last every year. haha.
but it was fun teaching the sec one's! i can't believe i can actually like shout properly. so maybe it wasn't all that loud but i still amaze myself. and by today got back all results already. very very bad. no 'A' at all la. a couple 'B's and the rest are 'C's. yea, C for ~~cookie!~~ courtney! haha.
was evesdropping on an interesting conversation in the bus. these two guys (from melissa's school i think) were like arguing or rather debating on whether God was real. like if you ask me i'll be like 'duh~' but still it was interesting to listen to. and was kinda thinking to myself. you'll never reakky know it unless you believe it in the first place. so ya. and then that other guy was like 'how'd you know if heaven is real' and i was kinda like, 'pick whether to believe in it, die and see where you go!' but i didn't really say it of course. but really lor!
anyway, think i'm not in NDP anymore. really confused. jolene and joey kinda went for their first practice today. and the rest of us didn't. so i guess i'm not in it? idk. i've given up on this.
and i'm gonna play some really kiddy game now. don't ask. and btw, it's not maple. hate maple.

just keep screaming

2008-05-14T17:34:00.002+08:00

today felt like the first day of school after a short holiday. or rather a long weekend. ok, it kinda was. played floorball for p.e. haha, the poor cheer people had to do cheer. although i only saw them sitting on the floor. sitting.
so i wasn't really playing floorball either. i was just standing there screaming. only when the ball came near la.
reasons why i scream:
1) the ball's coming and i don't know what to do
2) the ball's coming and i think they're gonna score and i can't do anything about it
3) the ball's coming and i think it's going to hit me
4) the ball's coming and it's going to hit me
5) the ball's coming and it's going into the carpark!
6) the ball's coming and it's going to hit a car!
and as pointed out by yonglin
7) cornelis is coming and looks like i'm gonna be sent flying to the carpark together with the ball
and they are all very valid reasons to scream. so don't blame me! i think i was like pissing yonglin and the guys off by screaming so much. like please lor, the only 2 other girls there were dawn ans her slavedriver. who were on the other side.
yea, got hit i couple times i think. cause everything was like just in a mess. and i ball got squished. i think it was by glen. and he like whacked the ball at me and i've so got a blueblack on my hand. now i've got 2 in a row. and yonglin had 3 in a row on her leg. haha. she's got bad experiences with floorball.
and then got some papers back. not good. not good at all. but i haven't exactly failed anything. ok i failed chinese, but overall with paper 1 and 3 i passed. i got 30/50 for compo! and i passed english too. i got 21/30 for english compo. i thought i would do badly cause i thought i digressed too much while trying to make my point that,
short people=insecure=jealous
oh just incase you're wondering, the topic i did was 'jealousy'. no idea why i did that. oh maybe it's cause i love risk taking, and doing these funny topics bring me such joy. and once again it has paid off. but i guess i'll regret one day like of i do a really weird topic. i don't mind la. not during o levels can already.
and i think i still want my slippahs.

2e under the stars on ice

2008-05-11T00:00:00.002+08:00

had another 2e gathering. it was fun :)
and we took bus 11 to the kallang leisure park. as in bus no. 11. not walking.
at first yonglin and i went super early and it was like kinda bad .so i was like 'i wanna go home ' and went all whiney. then after what seemed like forever, we saw joey and jia qi. and then after that they all started coming. went to the 99cents sushi place.
then we went skating! funfunfun. missed skating lots. felt abit odd when i first got on the ice. but got used to it quite fast. i'm not sure who fell first, but i think quite a number of them fell. and joshua fell like a million times and he's so gonna regret. haha. and i nearly got dragged down cause was helping chunxi. it was so funny la we were like gonna fall but we didn't. and i really wish i skated more. i wanna learn how to do those spinny thinngs! looks so fun!
we like had a plaster party inbetween lor. everyone was plastering. i got a blister. actually it's just like the skin got frictioned off. it's only the size of like an msn smiley though.
then we walked really far to the no. 10 bus stop then took the bus to shuyi's house. they were like playing captain's ball. and i was just standing in the corner avioding the chaos as usual. and then shuyi was like 'pass to courtney!' and i screamed 'nooooooo' but conrelis threw it anyway. and i didn't catch it. duh~ the only time i did was when it was kinda coming straight at me and it would like just slam into me. if it's like higher then eye level i don't bother. haha.
and then we barbequed. didn't eat much. and i know i'm not supposed to go too near the fire but whatever. i don't think contacts melt that easily?
then played truth or dare. i had to do the earthquake thingy. i should just have answered smth, would probably be easier. oh wells. and i think the best dare was keith's one lor. omg. super funny. i'm not sure of i'm allower to mention this. cause it's supposed to remail like just between all of us. haha.
and then played 007 which is actually splat just with a different name and whithout kicking ppl out. my face kena drawn twice.
then went home. anything i missed?
ohya. like when we were still playing t or d in the back, shuyi's yongest brother like kept trying to sit on tricia and i. so we crossed our legs. and i was falling off the chair cause i was between 2 chairs. ya. and omg. lionel has the slippers/sandals whatever you call its that i wanted! :'( i'm jealous! haha. now i dunno whether i still want lor. eventhough i want the green and brown ones. like probably everyone who knows me knows i can't stand having the same things as other people. i really wanted them! ): now i gotta find smth else. darn, wished i had gotten them earlier. no wait. then i wouldn't be different anymore. oh, so that's good. oh i don't know.
OMG! an ant just crawled on me! be gone you ant!
so anyway it was fun! kinda wished i stayed over, but mommy would never let me anyway.

still awake

2008-05-09T02:39:00.003+08:00

ohman! i'm still awake! i scared i sleep during lit tomorrow! help! i really should stop watching now. but ah! i can't sleep anyway. i'm super wide awake. help. help. help. i scared cannot wake up!

insomnia

2008-05-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

i can't sleep. tomorrow's like pure lit mye and i think i'm too scared or smth. i don't know. but anyway, i'm awake. and i'm like watching my korean show now. and i just don't know why i can't sleep!
tmr's gonna be like kinda busy. like after lit, need to pluck weeds in that tiny little 'garden' that apparently belongs to us (GB). and the gb room's in a mess too, so we have to pack.
and then i'm supposed to meet yonglin for lunch then go shopping. i needa buy mommy's birthday present, and idk, gwen too? but who knows when we're meeting again so not sure yet.
then she's got her sister's birthday, so she has to go off. then i go home, then i have to like change and stuff then i'll have to go to century for dinner.
:D
i love post exams (:
and saturday or rather, tomorrow's ice-skating day! :D it's the 2e under the stars on ice thingy. haha. to put it simply, a 2e outing. haven't skated in a really long time though. hope it's not crowded or anything. i sound aunty :(
omg. i hate sua. ok, you probably don't understand. she's from the show i'm watching. and she's a total bitch. hate her. and i hate danpung's mother, and the grandmother. they are so irratating. and that guy is so retarded it's funny. haha.
i wanna search last ep!! (:

exams day 3

2008-05-05T15:17:00.002+08:00

third day of exams and i feel like the world is at it's end. maths paper 2 was like kinda difficult, but could do like 75% of it? there was this graph question like what is v in relation to something. i had no idea what on earth it was. was like some graph on velocity. and by the time i got to that question i was like so pissed with everything and i was like panicking and it was SO SO hot, i wrote, 'how am i suposed to know'. after i finished the paper i calmed down abit, and was planning to erase it. but i came across this question i didn't know how to do and i forgot all about it. but seriously, how am i supposed to know! i don't even take physics.
velocity to me is just that shopping mall next to novena square which i thought was a rip-off of vivo city cause i thought it was pronounced as 'vee-loo city'
chinese was hard. acutally i think to most people it was ok, but it was all so foreign to me. like i took super long to read the passages i still don't understand. i think i'm going to fail ):
and i haven't decided if i'm going nco retreat. i don't really wanna go, mommy doesn't really want me to go, but i feel so burdened if i don't go. cause you know, it might not be very pleasing to some. shall not elaborate on that.

Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.

Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.

hungry hungry!

2008-05-02T16:10:00.002+08:00

today's the second day of exams! chinese paper 1 and bio. chinese paper 1 was okay i guess. normal la, compo and letter writing i wrote quite long (in my standards) but never count the words caus was too lazy. so i just slept. and our break was so short! had no time to eat or study or do anything. only had like 5 minutes? thank goodness i brought granola bits (: so i ate it. wasnt' all that full but i survived.
bio was a killer. super hard. she told us to focus on the later chapters but in the end all the front came out lor! and was so much harder than the paper she let us do. i think i'm gonna flunk-eth bio too, or like just pass. oh btw, my new favourite word is 'flunk-eth'. ever since exams started, it's been like the only word that comes to my mind.
and i was really hunrgy when i got home. for lunch i had last night's fried rice, like a whole plateful. and then i was still hungry, so i cooked instant noodles. and i finished it. and i just ate an apple. i think i have some kind of eating disorder. i can eat and eat and eat. not good. cause i'll grow fat. ah. i really should be studying now. but i'm watching my new show!
oh i really should be studying.

and i ran

2008-04-30T16:02:00.002+08:00

today i ran during pe! haha. actually i didn't have to cause mr. sham rounded down my timing. haha. was planning to run first and last round with yonglin. but ended up running the first round with schuyler cause like nobody running with her. so second round i breaked. then ran last round with yonglin. and she passed! :) but she was like super half-dead after that.
and today was pretty much boring. was supposed to have chem remedial, but everyone like not going, so i thought maybe don't have already, so i didn't go. so i got bubble tea and went home.
i just ate lunch. instant noodles. had cup noodles yesterday. there's a difference. but i don't feel full. i think i could have eaten 2 packs. darn, i'm still hungry. but i'm too lazy to cook another pack. i feel like drinking the thai chilli sauce mommy bought from bangkok. it's super nice. sweet and not too hot. it's so drinkable! i think i'm just going mad. ignore me.
and i really should be studying now. bio! ohno. i scared for essay questions. :(

MYEs!

2008-04-28T16:13:00.002+08:00

today was the first day of mid-years! first paper was english paper 1! my favourite! but i always have a problem. i take super long to decide which topic i want to write. i took more than 5 minutes, then i decided to do situational first. did the one on time management. and for the compo part, i narrowed it down to the one on banning plastic bags and jealousy. i finally picked jealousy. i know, i tend to pick the weird topics. so far i don't know anyone else who picked it. like last year when i did the 'do pets make good gifts'. so it's another of those either very good or very bad. so i'm scared! haha. i really wish i could do both or all. love writing!
english paper right, when i started reading the passage, i was like, wha, cheem, must be mr.rash set one lor. then right, when i read the questions, they were so lit-ish. so i was like, quite sure. then he came in to ask if got any questions and it was like confirm him lor.
and then ss. i was just like just pray and hope for the best. i hope i survive.
i'm gonna flunk-eth ss!
then took 81 home with shujun, michelle and joyce. and then michelle was like 'i saw a hotness!' and i was like 'what?' and she just kept repeating but i didn't know what on earth she was talking about. i though she said she saw a hot nurse and i was like what?! after super long i realised she was talking about some guy like really really front of the bus. we were at the last row.
and i know i should be studying now, but i think i'm taking a short break today.
and,
TOMORROW IS FREE CONE DAY AT BEN & JERRY'S! go get your free cones! and incase you're wondering why they're giving away cones, it comes with ice-cream.

a day of firsts

2008-04-25T18:41:00.002+08:00

i had i few firsts today. the first first was that i took a cab home! well actually i shared with michelle and shujun. cause had SO many things to bring home. had trouble even getting out of the cab, cause had so so many things.
the second first was that i ended 6 sms-es in a row with ): for denting my pencil case again, forgetting to buy dinner, when i though tmr had ndp and when explaining to sharmaine why i sent so many ):
oh, and i went shopping with yonglin just now. and now a have $0.00 in my wallet. not a cent. couldn't buy bubbletea cause all the army guys that just came back were hogging both bubbletea stores. and i was too lazy to queue. they all look like clones ok. it's freaky.
and i studied for really long. more than 2 hours ok. and then i'm going to write things for people cause exams are coming. last years eoy ones were nicer, cause i used clean gum wrappers which was like typical me. but this time only have post-its. not special at all ):
and i've been home alone the whole day and it's gonna last till night cause daddy's got some dinner in town and mommy's not back from bangkok. and omg, she's going tokyo next next week! not fair! i wanna go too! ahhhh!
she's coming back when tamm leaves ):
oh well, will see her in june!

the ugly class tee

2008-04-23T21:06:00.003+08:00

today we like finalised our class tee. and it's damn ugly. it's like just our name and then the 'J' in the wreath and some funny sentance in a foreign language at the bottom. i still think the 2E class tee last year was the best lor. cause it's like you get to see everyone's face and that's cute.
and MET TAMMIE AT THE AIRPORT yesterday.. at first i though it was their girls volley team, kinda found out they came with their soccer guys too. so made me think of shujun. haha.
and got new earphones yesterday! it's the green and black ones (:
and i went for piano today cause tmr got extra class for geog cause she can't finish the sylabus. omg, i cant spell! haha. which meant i ponned chem remedial today ):
and i think i might be gg out on friday.
and i kinda am going for ndp. so i'll be busy every saturday till national day :(

farewell

2008-04-21T15:31:00.002+08:00

on satuday had the farewell for sec 4s.
went there at around 11am to like set up the place and it was SO HOT. then we drank like 2 bottles of coke before like even started anything. haha
then yanlin, jolene, isabel and i went to fetch the sec 4s. the first bus was like tabitha and the sec 1s. so we had to wait half an hour for the next 403. and we cw-ed on the road, so time past quite fast. i was the most retarded one la... take a look for yourself.

yanlin and isabel

jolene and i (:

this was so weird

finally!

and after like 2 hours, all of them arrived. most of them at least. then we had lunch, and by then drinks were depleting. so liane and jolene went to buy drinks.
took pictures and pretty much just walked around. i saw a tiny mudskipper, and someone found this dead eel on the rocks. it was like all hardened already. then went to play in the sand.
then jolene and liane came back. liane was like lying on the ground. though she fell off her bicycle or smth, then realised jolene had a bicycle too. like since when could she cycle? after that we went over and discovered liane was like literally ROFLing cause jolene fell off the 4-wheeled bike. twice.
then went back in the sand, wasn't planning to get dirty but they were having a sand fight and i got caught in the crossfire. and joey like threw a handfull of sand down my shirt. so much for staying clean.
so went to change, lent shuwen my fbts. haha... and then went home to shower and go to church. was tlw but everyone was so informal ok! i felt so weird. SO SO weird. shan't harp on it anymore :(
then went home to change and went back to the bbq. had dinner, then was the speech and stuff. everyone was like crying ok. me too. which was kinda good cause my contacts were getting kinda dry. and we made this heart shape with tealights. was so pretty. don't know why but can't click on the add image thingy. or rather it's not responding. so another time.
and then i had to go home ):
today was very sleepy. english was just a chatting session as usual. then was bio, did terribly for test. and then chinese, was sleeping. as usual. recess was normal. tried to order chicken rice with no chicken but didn't work out. lit was ok, i got 16 for my unseen prose test. and handed in my no-link 'speach'. then it was math, elect geog-had a test on development, math again.
and yonglin was sneezing the whole day. haha..
i really should be studying now.

stunned

2008-04-18T15:05:00.002+08:00

today the ground was wet, so had morning assembly in class. oh and it was a really horrible day. cause friday's are killers! ackk. like 2 hours of mrs leong teaching like very similar things. and then 1 hour of chem.
then recess. ate as usual and then when we were like going to cut across the carpark to walk back to class, yonglin and i saw something that kinda shocked us like really shockingly. ok, that doesn't make sense. but we really couldn't believe what we saw.
during english kinda turned to her and said that i was still a little stunned, and she was like, 'me too! i was just thinking about that too'
i'm still a little surprised, but we've been piecing things together and it's becoming quite certain that it's like true. haha
ahh, i feel so gossipy!!
oh i can't help it. sorry.
and the bbq tmr! excited! but am leaving at 3 to go church then i'll come back again. cause i haven't been to chruch in ages, so i have to go.
and i really should be studying now.

tuas incineration plant! (LJ)

2008-04-16T20:22:00.002+08:00

today's LJ day! anywayys, couldn't take napfa, so had to like do some during pe. i think i did really really badly for like everything we did. i only did 14 inclined lor! that's bad for me ok. i think i did like 19 or 20 last year... so that's bad. and standing broad jump! i know i'm bad at that, but it's worse than last year. i only jumped 153 ok. that's not even my height. can't rmbr exactly how far i jumped last year, but i know it's more than that la. and shuttle run also not good la. first time i ran was 12.10 lor! that's really bad. second time was 11.8 which is better, but still not very good. i think when we ran during pe it was only 11.6, not much diff, but still. so i think i'm rather dissapointed with myself, but i kinda expected it. i've been like couch potato-ing like since i don't know when. so i'm so to blame. and gosh, really felt like kicknig zane ok. when natasha was doing she was like so omg la. i kinda shouted, 'go away! stop disturbing her la!' at her. it wasn't even me ok, but i felt so pissed for natasha. i'm normally not that mean la. but it's like she was like pretending to use her leg to like kick her but and like i don't know what else. but i think i should relax, she wasn't doing it to me or anything. but i think yonglin understands. she does that too. ahaha.
and we pretty much only had math, because like pe, cd and recess arn't exactly real subjects. and we were just playing stupid games like heart attack during cd.
and like almost everyone ponned chinese. only 15 mins la! go for what. had lunch then departed to what i thought was the 'national environment agency'
when we ended up in tuas it seemed kinda weird. you know what? we went to TUAS INCINERATION PLANT. i was like so shocked when we got there. and IT. STINKS.
there was this 30 min 'briefing' and a 25 min 'tour'. the part where the trucks go to drop off the rubbish was SO STINKY. so stinky glen puked. haha. it was that bad. when we left that part the splats were still on the floor. and thank goodness for yonglin and her hand sanitizer. haha. and everytime there was an aircon thingy everyone would like gather around and form like a square. haha. i guess it was ok la, very stinky, but ya. we survived.
and we reached school at like 5.40pm. then went home with joyce. ya.

addicted!

2008-04-15T19:32:00.002+08:00

i'm like suffering from contact addiction. i'm so going to wear contacts tmr...
anyways, ANGKONG! haha...
ya, not allowed to say much else.
today was kinda boring. apart from yonglin trying to push me out of my chair, it was pretty normal. and angkong. and mr. law was super dead today, don't know why. and his hair was like so flat. worse than shujun. i acutally asked why his hair was so flat, and he just looked at me like 'how am i supposed to know'.
and then went home with michelle and drank bubble tea.
i really should learn to spend less. like almost my whole april allowance is gone already. so that's bad.. i'm barely halfway through!
oh God, help me. please.
and i still don't know what to do about saturday... i kinda decided what to wear already, so it's just a matter of whether i'm going or not.
ya.
oh wells.

founders day

2008-04-11T21:25:00.003+08:00

just came back from founders day like an hour ago.
today started like a normal friday, but with only 6 periods and with relief teachers all the way. but i left at 9.45 cause got one last rehearsal. then after the rehearsal went to yonglin's house for lunch and to shower. oh oh, then when we were there right, her brother came home with his friend which was a relief teacher. but not any that relieved us today. and yonglin was like :O haha... he was like saying to her, 'you from st. hilda's ah? i think i remember you' and she was like O.O it was so funny. and his shoes are huge. like HUGE.
anyways, then we left at around 2.30 and went to 7-11 to get a drink then went to school. then got ready and everything.
BUT, in the end didn't have to march cause got enough people already. i mean it's kinda good cause i didn't have to stand there for so long and everything, but then again it's like i go for nothing la.
then had to go hall to attend the full thing cause the hall was very empty and it's 'not very nice' so we just had to fill in the spaces...
then went down for dinner. it was ok i guess. and then went to change and now i'm home. i'm still kinda hungry ):
got gb again tomorrow. but at least i'm not going for p&d. cause it's grandma's birthday. no, it's not just an excuse. it's true la.
and at this very moment i'm missing the planet shakers concert thingy. melissa went yesterday!! omg!! i should have called her!!! ACKK!!
sobs.

contacts!

2008-04-10T20:18:00.003+08:00

i've been wearing contacts the whole of this week. well, except today.
and i'm wearing again tomorrow. the whole point was for tomorrow. founder's day.
anyway i think contacts are better than glasses. love them.

mixed

2008-04-04T20:48:00.002+08:00

i've been really busy this week! ):
ok, maybe not THAT busy, but still. anyway, YOU KNOW WHAT?
there was the 987 invasion thingy on wednesday! BUT, YOU KNOW WHAT? it was only for the sec 4s! like what?! omg, so sad la! and it's probably never going to happen ever again, not in the near future anyway. so it's like so not fair. at least let ot be sec 3-4s la! sad leh! omg. and during morning announcement they said it's muttons but in the end was shan and ross. he's like 2-3 heads taller than mr. rash? cause they kinda walked throught the hall. for a second i was wondering who's that super tall preson. ya.
and the weather's been really mad this week. and it's not nice! it's either super super hot, or it rains, and it's the kind of 'hot rain'. like it's not cold. it's hot. and humid. not good.
thursday was okay, lit was better, cause mr. rash actually was teaching. i hate group presentations and group thingys in lit. i think it's like so ugh, waste time. i don't know, but i just feel that way. piano was ok, didn't really practice, and was kinda hard to play cause of my super long nails. yea, not caught yet :) mrs.anne said they (my nails) were nice :) but she said she can never keep them so long cause it will like chip. then we talked about buffing :) haha. and smoky (one of her cats) has been stealing things from like other houses. like other cat's toys. and one side of someone's slipper.
today was quite good, geog presentation finally worked, but super pai seh la. then was ss. boring, but ok la. then chemistry, i wasn't doing anything else like buffing my nails, but wasn't paying attention. not that i did it on purpose or anything, but my mind was just somewhere else. like thinking about food. i was starving! she ended abit earlier, so i was happy. but i don't know how to do the chemistry worksheet. and then mr. law not around mah, so we had like 3 periods free. just had to so the compre thingy. then i slept and i went to put eyeliner cause i was too bored. i ponned chapel, because yonglin got some handbell thing, so i'd be all alone. elizabert ponned too, so we all went to interchange and we drank bubble tea.
then i went home, had a decent lunch and went to sleep after watching abit of tv. then woke up, watched what was left of the tyra show, and then went to cook dinner. had cha soba. then ate chiffon cakes. i like the cheese one! :)

bad bad day.

2008-03-31T17:01:00.002+08:00

today was a bad bad day. or in the words of christopher boone, a black day. and no, it's not cause i saw 5 yellow cars in a row. heck, i don't even care about cars unless i get knocked down in which i won't mind unless i die or get very badly battered up. i want to survive getting knocked down by a car with hardly any scratches remember?
anyways, it's bad cause i had 3 tests today. one of which was a surprise one. that was lit. and then there was english that was compo, which i wrote like crap. and a maths. i suddenly forgot how to do question 2 until the last 5 minutes. so it was a bad bad day.
but i finished all my homwork already! a very rare thing in terms of courtney.
oh wells.
and then there was this thing about zane and her 'boyfriend' haha. i think it's an imaginary one. or like bubble buddy. haha...
and tam's coming back on 22-27 april! yay! she's coming with her school volleyball team or smth. can't believe she's in vb la. it's so unlike her. tash maybe, but tam it's like wow. there's aways a first for everything i guess.

omg. i look like mrs.wong

2008-03-28T20:53:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH. i'm so hating my hair.
it's so mrs. wong.
and that's bad. as in BAD bad. like it can't really get much worse. it's horrible.
and it wasn't really meant to turn out like that.
yonglin and shujun were like calling me helmet head. and i'm sure everyone can agree that i look like mrs.wong la! omg. i'm so on the verge of mowhawking myself. i don't know what to do already la. this is real bad.
i hope i get over it by monday. cause it's alot of trouble having to hide my face all the time. i was like trying to cover my face as much as possible the whole day. i think everyone who's seen me is probably laughing their ass off.
oh wells. everything looks ~~good~~ better when it's on me right?
i hope.
:(

oww. my ears.

2008-03-26T20:16:00.002+08:00

so i'm not as depressed anymore, but that doesn't mean i don't miss amy any more. for bio, we're doing enzymes, and i can never look at amylase the same way again. amy-lase, get it? oh nvm, that was really lame.
today was really tiring. i went to school at normal time (6.50) to do the photo board thingy, cause i'm the stupid environment/decor rep. so i finished it in 20 mins with help from siew bin. she's supposed to be in evnironment too anyway. so i slept after that.
and today got chem remedial! mr. bakar teaching us instead. i think he's better than mrs. ho la. at least he's not hypnotic. and then kinda rushed back for chinese tution. during chinese tution hor, got i think this bunch of girls who were karaoke-ing nearby. and their singing was horrible. they sang: unfaithful- the rihanna one, it ends tonight, somewhere over the rainbow, my heart will go on- the titanic song and it ends tonight. again. and it was horrible. it was super zhao sia la. wose than yonglin lor. and i think my chinese tution teacher sings better? cause there was this compre passage, then got one passage a paragraph was on like famous songs and stuff, so she asked me if i knew it, so she kinda sang abit of it. obviously i didn't know the song la, but at least it sounded better than whoever else that was. it was like someone put a kitten in a blender or something!
and then i watched tv. and now singapore's leading lebanon 2-0. i know, i was like :O when i saw it too. oh wells.

i could flood the earth

2008-03-25T15:41:00.002+08:00

this is like probably the most :O thing you'll be reading today. amy's gone. no, not lost, my parents returned her. on sunday. i cried the whole day. ok, maybe not the whole day. from when i got home after cell till like i slept at 10/11+? my eyes were like (-)_(-) on monday. you're probably wondering why. it's cause she pooped on my mother's beloved carpet. the damn carpet. i feel like ripping it into shreads everytime i see it now. like just take a scissors, knife, pen knife, MY TEETH and just shredding it. and for my to cry the whole day it's really bad ok. i mean, i get 0 for math class test, SO WHAT? i fall into a drain and you know the rest, SO WHAT? you could knock me over with a car, SO WHAT? but when it comes to my pets i'm softer than a marshmallow. i only cried for like 1 and a half hours max when my hamster died, and i was too young when bailey died, and i didn't give a damn when my fish died. but i guess dogs are like really important to me? i only had amy for exactly a month, so i can't imagine when duchess dies. i'll cry for a month. i thought that after sunday i'll like sink into depression or something, but i've realised, it's not that easy. maybe cause i'm like too happy a person or something. not many people know i don't have amy anymore, not many knew i even had her, but she'll be with me forever. in my heart. i love you amy. muaks.

I.Feel.Like.Dropping.Pure.Lit. i hate it.

2008-03-17T16:15:00.002+08:00

I.Feel.Like.Dropping.Pure.Lit. i hate it.
i know, i never imagined myself saying this either. but it's becoming really like B-O-R-I-N-G. cause all we ever seem to do is discuss topics in groups, present, listen to other groups present and if we're lucky, mr.rash will actually teach us something. and it's not like he can't teach or is bad at it. he's been teaching me from sec 1 for goodness sake! don't know why this year is like so different. and it's not that i hate the books either. i love them. they are like the best book i could do for lit, and they're about like not normal people, and i find that very interesting. as usual, i don't participate in class discussions unless asked to, i'll just wonder things to myself and hope someone will ask what i've been dying to. it's not like i'm gonna ask. cause i think the class is like really big, and the whole room seems really big (auditorium) and i feel super weird having to talk unless asked. talking to jolene or yanlin or moira or anyone i know fairly well doesn't count. cause most of the time they don't answer what my question (when it's about lit) cause they don't make sense all the time. like that i ask like out loud isn't it worse? everyone will look at me like D:s you know the 'waht?' face. btw, that's not a typo, i meant to spell it like that. so that's why i don't bother. and well, if i drop pure lit, then i got nothing. and my geog+ss is cannot make it one. i so should have taken elect lit and like poa or something. it seems easier, eventhough my math sucks. it's too late now.

lost

2008-03-15T10:36:00.003+08:00

i'm so lost. i don't know what to do. amy is so getting me pissed at her. cause she like pees and poops all over the washing machine place again. she was toilet trained, but don't know what happened la. oh gosh, and today was really horrible la. i cried already ):

if only she would just pee and poop outside in grass! and eat her breath mints. not sure if i mentioned before, but if there was a dog that was half amy and half duchy it would be like perfect. unless it has like all their bad qualities. if you mix their good bits, that would be my perfect dog.

oh man, super scared about piano exam later! didn't go gb today as you can see... i wanted to go ms lum's wedding la. ):

and i think i'm sun burnt from yesterday. ):

area camp!

2008-03-14T21:01:00.002+08:00

just came back from area camp! 'twas great! we're in bedok area, don't really know why, but all i know is like tampines got 'disbanded' cause they wanted less areas, so somehow we ended up in bedok. but it was really great anyways.
so i got there in the morning at like almost 9, and then had like intros and things, then we put our stuff in the grace chapel, and then had like 'service', and then lunch was chicken rice. then there were more games! there's this funny one i never heard of before this, don't really know what it's called, but it sounds something like wompom to me. it's kinda like hide and seek, but the catcher must step on a ball in the center of everything when he finds someone. and if you're found you go to 'jail' and the jailers get freed when the ball gets kicked by a non-prisoner. i was just hiding behind the food counter thingy the whole time, but i went out once to free the prisoners. i blended in with the prisoners then ya. it's fun. but cause i was behind the counter to waddle around in order not to be seen. and now my legs are aching like mad. and i think there were like 2 or 3 more, then i thought i heard that if sherron didn't find us in like dunno how many minutes then it'll end, so i thought i'd just sit there till it ended. then i heard someone bang on the counter, and he didn't see me lor! then someone went to likt see if i was still there. which i was. but after that i was found la. but it was really fun. then played captain's ball. i'm bad at it as usual, cause normally i just stone, but got too little people in a group to stone lor.
we did bathe~
dinner was wanton mee! omigosh, it was GOOD.
then had service. it was about visions. cause that was kinda like the 'theme' of the camp.
and then we had campfire! on the rooftop thingy. it was made up of tealights in cut up coke cans, and light sticks in bottles. but hey, that's about as good as it gets. whaddya expect? we're in church on the roof terrace. for supper, we had roti-prata. serously. and we sang campfire songs, i was like oh man! cause sec 3 camp was barely a week ago. and i'm like, not again!
but it was fun la, really fun.
slept at like 1am, and woke up at 8am. that's like more sleep i get than when i'm at home sometimes. but it was cold.
had cereals and lots of junk food like chips for breakfast. acutally it was only supposed to be cereals. but like all the shss people had like so many chips and everything, so we shared. i guess we're all well stocked. it's like we had a never ending supply of chips. haha...
then had like service again. no wait first was the qt like thing. which i almost fell asleep halfway, except i was half frozen to death. i didn't bring my jacket ): but i just can't really visualize having a cell in class and everything, but,
(wait, i forgot the phrase, so tell me if it's wrong, cause i think it is)
we belong to Jesus, and we can change tomorrow (:
something like that la. i can't remember. ohwells.
then lunch was spaghetti. we kinda tahpaoed it in little containers and walked to the beach to eat. and then we had games! FUN!
first was the frisbee thingy, and the ground was really muddy, cause the day before it rained. and then we had tug of war. that got me really muddy, cause the 2nd round we lost, we really got dragged into the mud. we lost that one really bad. joey was infront and he was already like in the banana-soap mush pit. and we were like all on the ground. the first round we lost at least still like standing up. but i think it's like kinda unfair, cause like the shss girls (except me) are like all skinny one lor. and the others are like all bigger and taller. ah wells.
then the flour war. it was corn flour. quite fun lah, we were all white, hair and everything. then the water bombs! unlike the sec 3 camp one, it was just ramdom throwing. just throw at anyone. there were so many la, we were like filling bags endlessly.
so we were all muddy, floury, wet and happy. ah shoots. i hope i'm not sun burnt. then we went to bathe.
we did bathe. then it was kinda pretty much over ): i'm kinda sad. it's over already! like so fast.
and it was WAY better than sec 3 camp. cause the games and everything were so much better. so was the sunny weather! yea, cause they prayed. so it was alot better.
what more do i have to say?
oh, sorry, no pics. wanted to bring my camera, but didn't. isabel did, and was like cam whored through camp. hahas.
theory grade 6 tomorrow.
HELP.

projects!

2008-03-10T17:17:00.003+08:00

today we did projects! mostly geog and abit of chem. i'm like so busy but i still need to set aside time to do piano too! piano exams are like on saturday, and i'm like so panicking now. pray for me pleeese! i'm like so gonna die. argh!! and then there's like area camp on thus to friday, so i have to decide if i'm going anot cause i've got to do more piano and i don't know which to prioritize. actually i was like piano is more important, then like saturday amanda and shiyun were like 'you have to come!' and everything and then this morning edward like sent this super super long message like to us in general like almost begging us to go, so if i don't go i'm gonna feel so bad. i want to go, but i don't think my theory is good enough for saturday yet. ahhh!! oh wells.

back! again.

2008-03-09T09:12:00.004+08:00

yea, i know my blogs been like dead or on hiatus, but i'm back. very busy lah. with the dog and everything... here are the pics as promised :D

yes, i know amy darling is a little skinny, but i'll make her fatter (:

and here's what happened yesterday. after church didn't go for zone gathering cause had to attend the bbq for like the bookroom people. which includes mommy. so ya. didn't really eat alot. i don't normally eat alot at bbqs, don't know why either. and here are the pics a poached from nananael's blog ;)

i know, i know, my hair and whole do was a mess that day.

AMY (not winehouse) darling!

2008-02-25T17:37:00.002+08:00

AMY (not winehouse) finally here!
loves her, but hates toilet training her :(
i'll post pics next time. kinda in a hurry here...
tatas (:

back!

2008-02-19T17:58:00.002+08:00

exams are FINALLY OVER. i know it's only 2 days, but it seemed quite long. especially since on monday, papers + breifing ended at like 2+ so it was like a normal day. then went to yonglin's house to study. didn't really study much oso la. and then had chinese tution. ya. but i still think chinese was hard! i think eveything's difficult! todays papers especially. so hard la! i think i'm gonna do very badly. gahh.
oh wells. today i was so pissed with the computer! OMG! the internet wasn't working! so was super fed-up. hasn't been working for days. and a computer without internet is like a shoe without laces. it is useless. so i couldn't do much. and 4 days to my dog! i'm so happy :D
got maths tution later :(

vday!

2008-02-15T20:46:00.004+08:00

yesterday was vday! um, valentines day. ya. yonglin and i baked cookies. but not enough, so only gave the 2E people. wanted to give like more people, but didn't have enough. only got 46, so ya. got some stuff too (:
was gonna post pics, but the stupid thing ain't working! gosh, i think it's the tabs! cause now the internet thingy has the tabs thingy, and everything's been wonky. HATE IT.

gah!

and today, had that internet as a research tool thingy. ended like really early, cause we knew most of the like things already. so we had nothing to do for like almose 2 hours. and like we're not allowed to go home, so we just used the computer. zenon and benedict were like watching funny tyra show eps. like the vaseline one where she was rolling on the floor, and the one where she fell off the couch. zenon was like vase-line. haha. and then there was this, someone like made it into a animation. a lousy one la, but funny. and then watched miss swan and something else. forgot what it is. but very funny also. so ya. and before that i spent most of my time playing jetman. fine, laugh at me.

7 days to my dog! i'm like so excited! (:

AMY! (not winehouse) ya, that's her name. but when people ask for her name i'll just say the whole thing. (AMY! (not winehouse))

and tmr there's some gb cny thing. jolene and i are like doing food. we had to check if there's enough plates and forks. supposed to count 40. but didn't exactly count, but there were deffinately more that 40. and we're supposed to collect food at 12.45pm. yea.

oh wells. i gotta read 'The Hound of the Baskervilles' on wiki for lit. gah. i'd rather read all the chapters that don't fit and piece them together la. i thought of that too la, just that i nvr say only... hmph.

actually hor, during lit, i have lots of things to say one la. just that i don't. cause it's just not me? i don't know. maybe if it was a smaller class, or if i knew everyone better. ohwells. i have lots of opinions.

and during lunch hor, we were like talking la. about like zane. i we pity dawn. then i was thinking, i'm like very judgemental. to her for example. i always judge/lable people. i know it's bad, but it's like i just have to say it. so i asked yonglin what she would think of me if she didn't know me.

and she was like 'you look kinda bitchy'

me: :O (looks shocked)

she: maybe it's cause you tie ribbon on your hair and you have like spongebob everything, so people might think you're attention seeking.

me: :OO (looks even more shocked)

ya, but i don't think i care la. you can think what you want about me, but it's your loss you don't know the real me. i know i look like proud and stuck up too. but i'm not lor! i just don't talk/wave/smile at people unless i know them like really really well, or if they talk/wave/smile to me first. or if i know they confirm will talk/wave/smile back at me. so ya. and i'm kinda anit-social. so don't balme me. if you really hate me tell it to me in my face k?

ok i'm talking too much. i NEED TO READ The Hound of the Baskervilles!

back

2008-02-11T16:22:00.000+08:00

i know it's been a really long time, but i'll have to make this quick.
ok, on monday, i was like so :O ok. cause zane like totally copied me. it kinda was there for a few days, but didn't really notice. i have this MNG paper shaped plastic bag that i use for decor. it's quite a small one, cause i though that size was just nice la. it's been there since like ages ago. so it's been hanging under my table. and on monday, i realised she like hung a bag under hers too, and i mean it's quite a common thing to do la, but she used THE EXACT SAME BAG. just that hers was white and mine was black. i was like so pissed. if there's one thing i really hate, it's people copying me. and on friday i was so buffing my nails during chem, and on monday, SHE BROUGHT A BUFFER TOO. the block kind. which is like so not portable. and it was so colourful la, abit lian if you ask me.
but it was gone on wednesday. thank goodness. i think she probably heard me shrieking about it to someone. cause i was so complaining to everyone that day. but they (yonglin, shujun, isabel, natasha, e) are into buffing too. all thanks to me :)
oh, and on monday, cause i was still abit sick la, and it was cold, so i wore my jacket. you know the light blue one... ya. and from maths onwards i found the hood very irratating when i lean back, so i was wearing my hoddie from then on. and like almost everyone who walked past was starring at me la. cause i'm like at the back door there, and i'm like one of the first person you see when you look in the back door. felt kinda weird, but oh wells. mrs wong didn't seem to mind.
cny was ok. didn't have any homework. collected less moolah than last year. and i so got tinsley into nail buffing too. and i painted his thumb-nails camo-ish. haha. but he removed it :( he shouldn't have! the army people should have seen it and hired me as a manicurist or something! when he saw that the buffer really worked, he did the rest of his nails himself. haha. and guess what?
I'M GETTING A DOG!
no, it's not paris, but it's close. it's her momma. she's called amy. not as nice to call la, but STILL. i'm like so overjoyed. got collar ans stuff already! she's moving in this week (:

sick

2008-02-03T11:04:00.000+08:00

i'm sick!

i think i caught it from daddy. i hate it la. it started yesterday. ONE OF MY FEW GB FREE DAYS. omg. i was so pissed
la.

i don't want to run

2008-01-30T17:08:00.000+08:00

the difference between my last post and this is that i'm like 15 now. ya, i'm getting old. but life goes on...
there's cross country tomorrow! i so don't want to run. i mean i can walk, but we're the last batch to go, so if i walk the whole way everyone will have to wait like very long la. so i think i'll job abit then walk.
i know i had a few things to say, but can't remember already. went to dentist yesterday, like the shps one. missed about 45 mins of chinese :D and my teeth are fine.
oh wells.

the wonders of eyeliner

2008-01-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

these are just really random pics of me. cause i was playing with liquid eye-liner. i prefer pencil for just like eye-lining, but i love the liquid cause you get these really nice brush strokes and stuff. love it!

worst birthday week so far

2008-01-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

so it's not all bad. just some days only la.

saturday.

had GB as usual :( and then went home. didn't go to church cause had to attend a birthday party, and i definately could not miss it cause it was for me :) sort of an early celebration.

and then sunday, went for cell. now it's like one big cell. then for word we like split up. kinda like cell division. ok, that was lame. balme me for taking bio. anyways, then went for lunch, then went home. then went to compass point with mommy. while i was there, shiyun called me and she was like, "i can seeee yooou!" ya. she was there too. they were on the 2nd level and i was on the 1st. so ya.

then monday. was really tiring. after school had to stay back for class decor, cause it was suposedly due on tuesday. then shujun and yonglin came over to practice singing. but didn't really sing much.

tuesday had audition. it was quite bad. wha lao, when i step on the padle*( gah, can't believe i cannot spell lor) i think my leg like shaking la. but just like abit only la. and played lotsa wrong notes. i seriously didn't want to get in.

today. WE DIDN'T GET IN!! thank God! i didn't want to go through it all again. i am so not a performance pianist. more like a play for fun one :) and sharmaine tied my hair in like 2 braids today. but it all came out during pe. which brings me to this. i accidentally smacked the ball into nadia's face. and i feel really really bad. but i'm getting over it la. but it was quite hard la, and the ball is like coconut lor. so must have hurt alot. and there were like lots of casualties during pe or smth. all sitting in the canteen. oh and today is michelle's birthday. which reminds me,

MY BIRTHDAY'S TOMORROW :D

and oh ya. masking tape. that whole masking tape started again. now shujun, natasha, isabel, yonglin and my table has masking tape all over. oh and i made these

I <3

2 E

'stickers'. initially they were just for me. then i gave to them (my masking tape people) and then joey walked past and i stuck one on her, then i think she showed sara/sarah and then they got some too and then i didn't think the guys would want any, but they ended up taking alot too. so i ended up like mass-producing them. haha. and then like during chinese it got passed to other classes too. so ya. i made somemore to stick tomorrow :)

depressed

2008-01-18T15:46:00.000+08:00

i cried during a-maths yesterday. cause i don't know how to do la! and it's not like, oh, i dunno how to do so i cry. it's like so depressing la. i mean i like stare at it for so long, and i still can't do. it's so damn hard la! so then my table was all dotty with tears. gah. and it was like those slient ones, not the wailing kind. so yonglin kinda thought it was one of my yawn-until-cry thingys that always happens. so after a-maths was lit, and i was like super depressed looking. i was like dazed. and there's someone in my lit group who's kinda irratating la. and no, it's not yanlin, she's more like those kinds who talk alot but rightfully. and you might not want to hear mr.rash's stories during class, but how 'bout the rest of the class? it's good to change topic once in a while, don't be egocentric. the word doesn't revolve around you. i learnt egocentric during lit ;)
so anyways, ya. yesterday was bad. today better la. celebrated mr.chia and chunxi's birthday after school. was supposed to do decor, but they all cannot make it. :( and i left my file and foolscap in school by accident. so i had to search for the song to practice. so i gtg practice now. prob will be really busy next week. monday got to wrap up decor and then got 'band' practice. and then in the evening got tution, so i'll be really tired :( and then tuesday got aundition. gah.

cheenah!

2008-01-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

OMG. i can't believe i'm doing this.
shujun, isabel and yonglin are like gonna participate in the hildan superstar/band thingy. AND I'M PLAYING THE PIANO FOR THEM. gah!! me and my big mouth. i shouldn't have said that i'd play if they entered. cause i didn't think they'd actually go for it la!
don't know when auditions are. don't think i can perfect it by then though, cause shld be soon ba. omg. still can't believe it la!
and my ear is like pain la. dunno why oso. maybe i've been listening to music too loud or smth. gah, hope it get's better soon, cause it's really irratating.
and joey is teaching elizabeth's class poa i think. HAHA. hope they pass. and jose and keith came back again today. i dunno what to say to her also la. hopes she comes back more often (:
and i hope i don't get chicken pox. cause yesterday was with my cousin who like just recovered from it. gah! why didn't i get it when i was still totsy!

good, bad, UGLY

2008-01-11T20:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the GOOD.
JOSEPHINE and KEITH came back! was waiting for them. almost had to go off before they came cause i got piano. i was about to leave them a note, and someone was like, eh! they're here! i think it was yonglin who said that. they went to like isabel and jolene there, and we like screamed to them come over.
and then yonglin like ran to jose, it was like some bollywood thing, very funny la. so we like talked. but like dunno wad to talk oso la. then they went to see other people, and i had to go off, so left them a note. the same one i wrote 'hello' on before when i thought i won't see them.
and then went for piano etc.
today was the BAD+UGLY which = a terrible day
ok bad was that we had 6 periods before recess. and had mrs. leong for 2 hours straight. and then after that was an hour of noho. so it was BAD. then recess was ok. then had 3 periods of english straight.
after that had to prepare for recruitment. which was ok, until the end it was really UGLY.
i was on second roasting shift. and i think this year was pretty good la. but people kept asking for marshmallows, and i felt so bad to have to keep like saying no. so ya, and kinda got yanlin into trouble cause i didn't hear smth i was supposed to hear. not my fault right? super noisy lor!
so anyway, after everything we all kena scolded la. i dunno why also. i didn't know of anything we did wrong. and we got 16 girls, which is like alot compared to last year, and that's all that should matter. i dunno, but somehow, there was this implication that it went horribly wrong, and that it was like joey's fault. BUT IT'S SO NOT. i think it was fantastic. i think everyone thought she was the i/c lor. and yea, some stuff were last minute, but you have to take things as they come! you can't stick to some freakin plan the whole time! you've got to adapt. you know like even animals can do that? why can't we! taking things into your own hands is some form of initiative you know. and if you keep asking they'll say you have no initiative or smth. so either way it's like a loose-loose sitiuation. gosh. i was like really 'wth-ing' lor. and i was like if i knew that it was gonna be like that i'd rather we get no recruits and close down. if the sec ones saw what happened they confirm won't join already la. i'd like rather join mrl os smth. (no offence eelizabeth and natasha) and i think it kinda like spoilt the whole day la, if not for audrey reminding us that we got 16 girls today. and i think we allied with bb, and they only got like 19? which is kinda bad for them i think. so ya.
today was damn sucky.

hates maths

2008-01-09T16:34:00.000+08:00

i like hate maths ALOT. and if you find me dead, a maths would be guilty as charged.
and the very first a maths question i did i already got stuck la. and i was like grumbling away at yonglin, screaming, "I WANNA DROP A MATHS!" she got pretty fed-up after a while. haha. and then mrs. wong was like, you must be very good at this, cause this is (like) the easiest part. or smth like that la. and i was like D: wha lao! like that i confirm fail a maths already la! and normal maths is it's sidekick! omg, it's just as hard lor!
anyways, wednesday is the new pe day. gah! straight after homeroom lor. took height and weight. I DIDN'T GROW AT ALL LA! i'm still 158! damn. and i'm 46.7kg. that's not good lor. jolene is like taller+lighter than me! that's REALLY bad.
and i like staring out of the back door, and watch people pass by. it's like if people stare in, all the more i should stare back. like when amanda walk's past, which is like very often i'll wave. same with sharmaine, cause her class is like so near. and then yonglin and i will like wave. haha. i should practise smiling. cause like sometimes if they walk past it's easier to smile :) and my smiles are pretty spastic, so i have to work on it.
and today, i had to stay back la! cause i failed 'listen write' aka chinese spelling? ya. guess how much i got out of 10?

0 like ZERO :D

so she like made me stay back and rewrite each word i got wrong (which was everything) 10 times. my hand nearly died. and then she re-tested. i got 8/10.

out!

2008-01-06T17:28:00.000+08:00

i hardly was at home this weekend.
saturday had to go to school at like 9.30am, then rushed home, showered and then had to go church alr. then the daddy go invite the ppl who went to the mission trip to our house (including a used-to-be-friend). so i didn't wanna go home. but mommy said got lotsa food, so must go home for dinner, so i followed them to dinner and just drank a coke. left abt 8+ 9 like that. wished i could stay longer, but i scared wait tmr mommy don't let me go cell.
then in the no.3 right, there was this guy with a very qian bian face, so i was thinking, reminds me of our school volleyballers. then after he walk past hor, his shirt was 'st. hilda's / volleyball'. and i was like, 'i knew it.'
haha. and it's not like i recognize them by face lor, well except for that qian bian-ish expression i guess.
so reached home at like 9+ there was only 1 person left, thank goodness.
and today had cell. but not the normal kind. today was just games and stuff. so played whacko and stuff, then went to the beach. it was fine i guess. i was kinda anti-social. didn't really talk much, but i was just being me. but if you talk to me first hor, i can go on and on. i talk alot, but only if you talk to me first. i'm like that. and i didn't know that shss cell was so big la. today there were like 25 people?
so after like very long, went back to amanda's house, then went for lunch. super funny la, cause i was like at the same table as vera, isabel, nathanael, natasha and jeremy. then nathanael got lots of pics of like teachers in his phone, and it was supper funny la! so laughed alot. then after lunch, was raining, so shi yun called her mom to ask if she could fetch them, glenn and me home (cause i live near by). so we like waited, and then after that she called again, she watching korean drama, so we figured walking would be faster. so walked home. very hot la! reached home abt 4.30? ya. so i'm home now. later going my ahma's house for dinner.
and tmr's books are REALLY heavy. i weighed my bag + the books i'm hand carrying. IT WAS 8.5kg. so i told yonglin, i don't care if they all not leaving stuff in school. i'm leaving under my table. too heavy already la! and i haven't even put 'the curious incident of the dog in the night time' in yet lor. it's bad.

hating livejournal

2008-01-04T15:02:00.000+08:00

OMG. i hate livejournal! keep getting that error report thingy, then all my windows will kena closed. gah!
and they don't have very nice 'skins'. dun think can use those blogger type skins. if can, SOMEBODY TELL ME! all the nicer ones must upgrade or smth like that.
so i'm taking a break frm that to blog now. the livejournal is for ussw. oh why can't they just use blogger? it's much more courtney-friendly.
and you know what? mrs anna lim going away right, so you know who's our temp aft/chem teacher? that i shall not say mrs ho! you know the one who like during lifeskills caused SO much trouble? and for chem we have to like write reflections. what shit reflections. they ~~all~~ mostly turned into complain letters last year during that incident. and isn't reflections like part of physics? i'm not even taking physics la! gosh.
got new timetable, so i have to re-photocopy. i don't wanna go to school!! the books are like SUPER HEAVY. today's load was 5kg. i weighed it on the weighing scale when i came home.
ok, i better got back to livejournal. SIGH.

attack of the nerds

2008-01-02T16:30:00.000+08:00

first day of school.
i know it's gonna be a bad year.
i'm in 3J, incase you don't know. it's the triple science class, but don't know why i'm there. i'm taking double, chem and bio. there are like more then 10 ex-2eians, but that's still alot of strangers. and they're kind of the nerdy studyish kinds i think. most of them at least. and there are no volleyballers, which is good, but that also means cannot watch match :( nobody to support what. and there are even more girls than the last 2 years. that's not entirely bad, but that means lotsa cliques and bitching. but the good news is i still reign as no. 4, cause my register number is still 4! which makes this the 6th year in a row. let's make it 7. and yonglin is like 14 la! that's like me+10.
form: mr law.
aft: anna lim. GAH! cannot escape elearning liao!
and i don't really know the other teachers yet. got time table alr. everyday end 2.15pm except thurs and friday! sad la! then scarly got chapel on friday lagi worse la. sian lor.
classes start tomorrow. ALREADY. the sec 1s are getting it worse and worse. last year they only camp in school, now they don't even stayover la! super sad. i think we were the last batch to go for a REAL camp. and i'm thankful. i hope sec 3 camp is not in school or like no stayover. eventhough i gotta admit, i don't really wanna camp with my now class. it ain't gonna be much fun.
i don't think i'll bring any books tmr, but i'll see about that.

christmas

2007-12-26T10:37:00.000+08:00

i know my blog's kinda dead, but has since been revived. i very busy la. hardly at home, only at night, but i'll be watching tv. so anyway, here's wad happened. oh, and i was dressed as an angel :P

grandma's house:
went there, lotsa food! there was a turkey and ham and meatloaf! so christmasy! i got pics, wait for it...
and then after dinner we opened prezzies! ku julie got me a cap+top+chocs. ku olivia got me a tee+candycane+that thing she tied it with. aunty melissa they all got me a hairband. and then we called tammie and tasha and talked :D

tomatoes!

no, this wasn't mine
this was. it's only shandy :(

guess what this is? it's an overbaked mushroom :D
this was my plate :)

the rest of the food
HAM!
TURKEY!
slicing of the ham

sliced ham

duchee's food. it has ham for dogs in it.

the preety tree!

tua yee's house:

reached the earliest, then my ahma and auntys + adam. then melissa popped over before going to her other side, then 5th aunty came, and it was a frenzy of exchanging gifts with melissa & mom. and then more people came blah blah blah... ate dinner, nothing christmasy bout it though. then watched 881. it's quite stupid la. and then they were like playing with my halo (no, not the game) and wings. and then we opened prezzies!!

adam wearing my wings. the glowy light thing does make it look more convincing
tinsley MUTILATING his patrick
and wearing my halo+wings

merry christmas

2007-12-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

busy

2007-12-12T10:48:00.000+08:00

i haven't blogged in like a week. gah! but i've been really busy. with what? i have NO IDEA. it's just that i'm out EVERYDAY. just out. like not at home. so i have no time to use the com at all la. at night have time la, but i'd be watching tv. ahah...
anyways i've got dinner near my aunty's house today, cause it's my aunty's birthday.
which reminds me...
CHRISTMAS is in 13 days
the NEW YEAR in 20 days
SCHOOL STARTS in 21 days
and MY BIRTHDAY in 43 days!!
i'm feeling happy!

[one] camp

2007-12-06T13:42:00.000+08:00

if you read my personal message on msn (which has since changed) you'd realise that i got back from church camp yesterday, and it was AWSOME.
well compared to gb camp it's like a galaxy apart.
anyways, out like big group thingy is STRATO, and our group was NOVA, so it's STRATO NOVA. which by the way i just googled, and then got to beverly's blog cause she blogged abt camp, and i found out it's NOT some kind of star in some far away galaxy, but it's some digimon attack. like diao! get this:
Strato Nova (a massive ball of multi-colored energy is spewn out of his mouth)
when i saw it i was like part wth and part -_-// that was so not expected. anyway, it consisted of shss 1 & 2. and that's around 19 of us. oh and dunno why in the middle of camp it kinda became st. nova. haha
anyway here's what happened:

DAY 1 011207 saturday

got i lift frm mommy to church to attend that nick vujicic thingy, put bags into victory chappel, then met cell ppl and went up. almost froze in worship centre, and then went to down town east to eat BK. i didn't know there was dinner lor.
and then went back to church, was slightly late. then we boarded the bus to fairfield methodist secondary school. was there 2 weeks ago for 'peace confrence'.
so we went to the hall first. was as cold as it was the last time. and then went dow for dinner. had buffet. was not very hungry. so rui shi and i was just sitting there. and then joey like plonked a big plate of food infront of us cause he thought we lazy to take. ate squid and some other bits, then gave back to him. haha. and omg, the guys eat like so much. almost every meal they will like go for seconds or thirds or smth.
and after dinner went back to the hall for night service. the band performed for us. it's youth alive incase you're wondering. yea, the one that came to our school this year or smth. it was pretty good.
oh and i think they mentioned they like had some concert thingy with switchfoot or smth. like wow. why didn't they come for our camp? haha. didn't know they did christian songs and stuff, which btw, relient k is kinda like a christian band i think. melissa saw on wiki and told me.
supper was like tau huay with you char kway. haha. heard they went all the way to geylang to buy, lol. didn't really eat cause i don't like it.
anyway, we (the girls) slept in the're performing ates studio. i think i know why they gave the girls that room, it has like a wall mirror! haha. and half of the guys were in the hall. i think i'd freeze to death if i slept in the hall.
slept at like 1+ i think. but didn't sleep very well.

DAY 2 021207 sunday

woke up at like 5.30am because of someone's stupid alarm! gah! so went to toilet. and then was just lying awake in my sleepingbag. then after we all woke up and brushed teeth and stuff, went down to the hall. then had 'special breakfast' which was an auction of food for our breakfast! but even if never bid oso in the end will get food lor. we were all starving by the time the auction ended.
and then had morning service, the band was there again. thought it was a one day thing, but turned out they came everyday. and then had lunch, and then 'me cell rocks' workshop.
and then had the prison break thingy. haha. was really fun. was a defender, so our weapon was a stocking with powder. so like if we hit someone with it they were as good as dead. haha. but the attacker weapon was a little water gun. but can shoot quite far lor! and the medics had like masking tape so stick on ppl when they got shot. i got shot twice. haha. but was mostly just playing with the powder.
and then had a long awaited shower and then dinner.
then had night service, the band was thre again. ended very late. so late, i can't even rember what we ate for supper!

DAY 3 031207 monday

since it ended so late, we got to wake up at like 7+ cause programe stared only at 8.30am. which was really good. then had breakfast and morning service and lunch. then had workshop.
and then the band performed again. wait, i can't rmbr if it was morning service or workshop that everyone jumped alot. and that includes me ok. like usually, i never jump, well except for that time during fop. haha. but it's really fun la. and it's really different from just standing there.
and then had games. was really fun lor. didn't get to do all lor. and then we had this ramdom cheer. you knoe that mocca 'you wanna buy my house' add? yea, we did that. but we got people to form the letters 'N' 'O' 'V' 'A'. i was one of the 'extras' that only came in at the end. was super funny la, joey was the guy who points at the letters and like say 'the 'N' is over there!' that kinda thing. very very funny la. and they go video it lor! was so scared they play the video.
then washed up and had dinner. and then weishi told us that the camp comm was talking abt our cheer, which was like good, but was scared they go show the video. haha. and night service was really good. jumped a whole lot more, and everyone was like just running around. haha.
and then had supper. cup noodles! woohoo! ate tomyam :)

DAY 4 041207 tuesday

woke up at around 6.45am, and then had 5bx. was like nothing much la. then had breakfast and like group time.
then had morning service again. it's pretty much all the same stuff la. but after lunch, was supposed to have this thing la. it's like to test your faith. but like almost the whole strato didn't get to go. which meant us, cause not enough time. so we like slept in the hall for like almost 2 hours. all we did were like jumpingjacks, push-ups and sit-ups. while blind folded. which by the way i suffer from blindfold phobia. i heard that they had to do pretty bad and gross stuff. so i don't know if i'm glad or not that we didn't get to do it. then had dinner, and service.
twas pretty good, like prayed for the band and stuff, well it's pretty much just lots of praying.
and then had mock court. SUPER FUNNY. it's like they had this fake court thing. haha.
the first person to get um, how do you say this, brought to court was joey. haha, cause of the mocca thingy. at first they show the picture and we were already like, 'oh shit' la. cause we scared they show the video. which they didn't, but was worse, they made us do the cheer! like infront of everyone! haha, in the end dunno why became he doing taiji. LOL.
and guess what we had for supper? fruit tarts and MUNCHY DONUTS! haha. and by that time it was already like 1.30am. and then after we went back to the room, then suddenly call us all back. we were all like rushing back and like wondering what happened. we like kena scolded cause someone go hand underwear on the flag pole and like stuffed shoes and clothes in the toilet bowl. so had to do area cleaning, ours was canteen, so just picked litter and cleaned tables. light's out was at 2.45am.
oh and i was chewing this piece of gum for like 12 hours+ from workshop to lights out. cause it was my last piece, i passed it around the night before, so ya. haha. i'm bringing more this friday!

DAY 5 051207 wednesday

almost couldn't wake up, cause only got like 3 hours of sleep. had breakfast and grouptime and morning service, and then went back to church. i was actuall kinda sad that camp ended.

yesterday
slept in the bus back to church, then mommy fetched me, and we went to semei to meet adam they all. tins was there too, and he was likr zombied. haha. he said he didn't sleep for 2 days, cause he had class chalet and they were playing mahjong and 360. and i thought i was sleepy.
so then went to expo for some sale thingy. i bought a tee and some other stuff.

courtney concludes :)
CAMP WAS AWSOME. did i say this already?

STRATO!i don't think you can see this, but we've all got 2 ponytailscamp tee! it's GREEN!

busy

2007-11-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

since i've come back frm camp i've been really busy. and i have another camp tomorrow. church camp. should be much better.
so lets see. tuesday. forgot what i did liao. oh, nothing much lah. but melissa came to stay over. she was so fickled abt it, so was her mom. so she came like at 11+ which is like super waste time lor. and she like was talking on the phone for dunno how long, cause i fell asleep already. oh and in the middle of the ~~night~~ morning like prob somewhere between 4-5am, she like fell off the bed. haha. i heard this really loud plonk, so i woke up, and realised she was gone, and there were like 2 legs sticking out off the ground. i would have let her sleep inside, but her mom scared she fall out the window -_-// then if like that i how? i'd be like dead by now lor.
and the next day, went out with her, adam and tinsley. and my aunts la. watched enchanted, at princess. GAWD, that place sucks! but it was only $5, wad do you expect. no snacks lor! and it was really empty inside, so we were like all putting our legs on the the seats in front. actually melissa and my aunt who watched with us wasn't la. but i told her (melissa) to look to her left and right, (we were sitting like this, aunt; adam; tins; mel; ME) and we were like plonking our legs on the front seats lor. haha. and then went airport for lunch.
next day, had to wake up super early, cause mommy said must follow my grandmother (her momma) to go hospital to check her eyes. tinsley went along too. and my aunts. melissa and her mommy supposed to come too, but she was 'sick'. hmm. so ya. and tins went to the 7-11 there, and when he came out he was like, 'go see the cashier's eye shadow' me, 'why?' tins, 'it's cool, go see' me, 'why? wad color isit?' tins, 'black.' me, oh ok, later'
so i did go see after that. it was like black and smudger upwards on purpose, if you get what i mean. so anyway, i gotta eat my vending machine bread! haha. if you ever go changi hospital, so to the bread vending machine. it takes 90 seconds, so muct wait a while. and then i can't rmbr much alr, oh, were gonna go expo, but was really crowded cause of sitex, so didn't go. then went grandma's house for dinner. she cooked crab claws!! then packed my camp bag cause i knew i'd be too lazy to today.

oh and today had to go sch for decor thingy. made ice-cream stick thingys.

incase you can't see, it says "JOIN GB"

and i have to write my x'mas cards!

baleked kampong

2007-11-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

courtney's BACK! after what seemed like forever, i'm finally home.
so went to school at like 9+ in the morning on friday cause had ds2 at 10am. and we all passed practical! yay! though i would fail cause i was like super sian lor..
oh right, back to camp. i'm registra :) with nicole. like no diff la. only had to attend debreif on one night. and she did most of the work i think :X so we took ms. gan's car to camp. we were like squished in the backseat with half of the back seat taken up by like loads of stuff, and we had the keyboard and guitar piled on us plus like her clothes or smth which she hanged on a hanger on the handle thingy and was draped on us. we had the 'privilege 'of going by car. sure.
and then had to plan for dinner. and then had area cleaning. gosh, that's like one of the things i hate most about camp. i mean like why do we have to mop the floor and toilets and everything everyday? what are the aloha people paid for then? and we had to wash the catering trays and stuff too oso la! wth! (but that was not on the firstday, i did on sunday)
and then had like the chaplins come for like i dunno la, devotion? i think they're totally un-necessary. they are like super extra lor. fine, so the last day one was ok la.
and then did the craft thingy. and i hate supper. it's like we're already stuffed from dinner, and still must eat.
couldn't really sleep on the first day cause the aircon was like damn cold, and the mosquito coil damn smelly/smoky.
my eyes were like -_- in the morning cause had to wake up at 6am for 5bx. which i think is unnecessary aswell. and then had routine quiet time, and then got devotion again after breakfast. i was like sleeping through it.
then had first-aid badgework. but don't get me to help if you need first-aid or amything, i don't remember a thing. and we were all sleeping after we finished out theory test. had no practical test lor. and if it's anything serious just call 995 lor. then had knot tying. quite rubbish la.
and then had recre. was like those kind of amazing race thing. we were the only group that found all the checkpoints lor. cause it's like hidden then must go find. sherwin is good lor. she was like reading the signs, and once she saw the clue she found johor lor. it's a tree btw, and it was right outside the chalet. and then the boardwalk one. super hard lor, then she started looking under the leaves. she looked under all except the one it was under lor. so after judith told os that emma found it. and then there was another one between 2 flowerpots at the sunset walk there. i happened to see some white thing sticking out when i walked past.
and then went back and SHOWERED. and then had dinner, then area cleaning D:<>
and then ate supper and went to sleep.
next day, everything's the same till devotion (gah) it dragged super long. and then learnt to make a bbq to roast marshmallows for recruitment next year. ours failed. haha. and then had like a 1 and a half hour recre. played some game where had to lie flat on the ground and like slide and stuff cause there was rafia like 30cm off the ground or smth, so had to crawl through and collect stuff on the way. and then played dog and bone that way too. and then prepared for special night. showered again! :) sze ern was like singing some balek kampong sonr lor. haha. and dinner etc, and then had special night. and then went for night walk. I HATE NIGHTWALKS lor! but is no choice.
then went to sleep. and went home the next day! which is today. :D
btw, did i mention this year's camp tee is GREEN?

3J

2007-11-21T10:44:00.001+08:00

i probably shld have said this yesterday, but
I'M IN 3J.
dunno if it's good or bad. yonglin's in the same class, so that's GOOD. but they're some ppl frm other classes that we don't really like. fine, only 2 that we know of. or maybe one.
i asked elizabeth to help me find frm other classes who's in 3j next year. so far frm 2e there are:
huishin, me, shujun, isabel, yonglin, natasha, sara, sarah, angie, joey, siewbin, cornelis, suman, zenon, timothy
yep. that's 15 people. so that leaves abt 25 strangers.
and i really pity elizabeth. she's only got 2 other 2ers in her class. jiajian who she sometimes kinda hates, and lionel who like doesn't talk much. so i feel really sad for her. hope she has some councillor friends there or smth.
yep, and she's supposed to help me 'network' or so she calls it.

lunch

2007-11-20T10:18:00.000+08:00

this part's kinda about sunday, amos's lunch. so i knew where it was alr, so didn't meet tins. but got there kinda early, so was gonna go up and see of they were there yet, but i took this escalator that led right into kino and he was there. so i tagged along. he bought like $38 worth of comics lor! garfield and dilbert. he says it's a 'worthwhile investment'. what crap. unless he's planning to sell them many years later when they're worth lots.
so anyway, lunch was at coca. i always thought it was spellt with a 'k'. and drank lots of coke :)
after that went home. and everyone came too. ohya, and i bought a doughnut right after lunch in the basement :D t'was gooood.
yesterday had to go to school for drill practice. gah. it was kinda bad. kept doing static. and my brain was like asleep lor. somore did lots of long commands. and if i not sure of anything i just dun turn. cause i was too lazy to move. and i was damn hungry la.
went home and finished a bowl of meepok in like 1omins.
i'm gg to meet my aunty and melissa later at 11.15. then going to school to see posting, then gtg msgan's office to do smth. gahh!!

lunch

2007-11-18T10:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGLIN!

today's sunday, and i'm not gg for cell! haha. it's just at the park so like play cause otc just ended. i'd love to go though, but i've got lunch. it's amos's birthday tmr, so got lunch today. it's at taka. and i didn't realise that taka is acutally ngee ann city. gah. so was supposed to meet tinsley then go. but i think dun need alr la. supposed to meet him at 12.30.
so i might pop over to the park on my way to the mrt station, but maybe not.
oh and like on friday, i severly charred a pao. haha. mommy said must steam it in the pot thingy, and i hate that cause i'm a microwave person, but i did it anyway, and i totally forgot about it until can smell smth burning, and this is what happened to it
i cracked the plate :(

love my hair in this pic :) but other than that it's kinda unglam. :(

and yesterday had some peace comfrence yesteray, seriously it's quite crap. but went anyway. it was a GB thing. and our bus like forgot to pick us. so waited very long. and went back in a van.

archives/ friend?

2007-11-15T17:34:00.000+08:00

i went to school today to do some photo thingy for GB. had to find photos and like stick it in this scrap book. it's called archives. i mean like, we didn't even know of it's existance! there was one last year too. like what's the point of it if no one sees it?
thankgoodness i'm not in many pics. but i looked really retarded in one. it was the enrolment service one. cause had to stand very long so i didn't wear my glassed and i totally looked cross eyed. and there was the one in the shps hall, where we were all sitting. and didn't want my pic taken, so was looking down, and i looked super depressed.

ANYWAY, you know what? you know that cambodia mission trip i was supposed to go on? MELODY IS NOT GOING. GAH! i feel like killing her. seriously. well, first she ditches me cause she's going to canada to study for like dunno how long. and now, she's not going on the trip. i only agreed to go cause mommy said it was to spend some time with her before she goes to canada. and not she's not going. WTH! and i actually though she was my really good friend. i mean i've known her since we were little kids. cause our moms are like good friends. she's the last friend i thought i'd ever hate this much. well besides some of my good friends now. she's the last person i thought would like just ditch me like that. come to think of it, i don't think i ever got ditched by any of my friends before. maybe ditch isin't the right word. i think abandon is better. abit. gosh.
MELODY CHRISTA CHEN XIAO HSUAN, I HATE YOU.
and i know she doesn't read my blog so ;)
i feel really good now :D
i hope i never see her again.

:D

2007-11-11T16:30:00.000+08:00

hmm.

ok, today's sunday.

yesterday, was at my grandma's house. almost everyone was there. mmhmm. they were x-boxing. yea, i suck really bad at driving. but i won nicky! :D it was kinda close, but he crashed near the end so i won:) and the same thing happened when he raced with melissa.

anyways, had cell today. like 90% of us have sony ericsson phones :D well, before alex and shi rui came, all of us were sony ericsson-ers. :D

and rui shi called just now, she got a (new) phone. she said it's motorola. guess she had no choice, she lost hers like a few weeks ago.

watching daadaadaa again. like i watched all on crunchyroll alr, but i'm watching again.

anyway, here's the pic of the phones. mines kinda obvious cause of the tag.

from left to right:

erwin's; isabel's; amanda's; timothy's; MINE; jonathan's